My style is distinct like LL Cool J's Kangol hat, I like to think.
Style is properly defined as: The mistakes you keep making regularly enough to be distinctive.
Art folk don't seem to realize that there are two types of "mistake". The first is the obvious drew-the-thumbs-on-the-wrong-side-of-the-hands sort of stuff. The second is the artist not hitting that visual ideal that everyone knows but no one can clearly define. It's that second one artists tend to get hung up on and they shouldn't.
da Vinci's hand drawings are perfect? I've never seen that guy draw them shooting Spider-Man's webs. So much for the Italian Renaissance.
Where was this ramble originally heading? Oh! Right!
Part of my style involved a certain shape of brush that I pain-painstakingly customized in Clip Studio paint using a specific material shape as the base shape of my nib.
If yah know, yah know.
But get this! It was a a shape that... and here's the disaster in the title... is no longer available in Clip Studio's assets store!
I discovered this after moving my brushes to this new computer I'm typing on today. The base brush made the trip just fine. My changes to it? In some dark, dank, purposefully hidden file deep in Clip Studio's bowels I assume. Probably just some text file with random numbers I wouldn't recognize if it cried out to me. I don't know. I'm not a computer guy.
I spent a couple of hours last night trying to recreate that brush texture and shape... that vibe... that STYLE... yet nothing I did was good enough. That look is locked away forever on the old computer.
A Time For Healing: I shall throw all of my art supplies in a barrel and burn them now. There's no point. Well, there never was a point beyond the thin gruel of likes I got from internet strangers.
Ehn. I'll just find another brush I like and alter it until I can live with it. Thin gruel is better than nothing and I'm going to run out of photos of Japan at some point and then no one will be reading!
And in the 21st Century you don't have value as a human being if your social media isn't being read. Tree falling in a forest sort of thing...
