Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually boring and uninteresting, but I wish I was weird and unique so I try to copy the mannerisms of weird and unique people I envy and respect. But I don't want the isolation and ridicule that comes with ACTUALLY being weird and unique. So I do, for lack of a better word, Cosplay Weird. Weird but presentable. Weird but palatable.

This is especially a concern when it comes to making art. Because I feel like my usual instinct isn't to make especially weird or quirky art. My art is kinda predictable. It makes sense. It's not deep. It's not making the viewer ask questions. It just is what it is. 2 + 2 = 4.

And the natural response to this would be we make active choices to who we want to be and what we want to do. So I should just choose to make weirder art or be a more interesting person. But then the question of authenticity comes to mind. Is that REALLY me? Or will it come off as stilted and try-hard? Or poser-ish?

Will I actually be a weird cool person or just a boring normie in Weird Cosplay?

collagetober days 5-8

more pocket monsters art, my brain said earlier this week "make a sukajan bomber jacket design that's also like a winter coat and has falinks on it". so here's bea to model it

(Quote directed toward his arm that just fell off)
From March last year; my first go with this pen on this paper and I was quite happy with it. Messed up the staff-holding arm though.
Outfit inspired by Guzma.