I spend over a year and a half writing my book. Now I'm finally releasing it to the public. I knew I wasn't going to be an overnight success. I knew I was only really now starting my journey.

But still.

My nerves are shot and my heart is heavy as I stare up the hill.
I can no longer imagine Sisyphus is happy.

incredibly anxious about switching to new anxiety meds, oddly enough

today's plan for trying the new anxiety meds:

• sit on the couch with the dog while eating a whole box of store-brand Cheez-It knockoffs

little man is staying with me today, he didn't turn out to be a good therapy dog but he does what he can

i keep forgetting how small he is. he's so willful and boisterous and then it's like, oh right his head is smaller than my hand