Looking sideways at any white person who calls people "ninja"

It feels right to have my big RIP Cohost post be an addendum to this other one I also wrote because the lights had gone out.

Ultimately, it's one thing to foresee that the website won't survive and another to watch it die. I didn't actually plan out a future without Cohost because I liked it so much. I'm not looking forward to going back to the other websites… although I have a job now, I would like to no longer need one someday, and so I have to play the game to some extent. So I'll be on any website you can think of probably.

This site's been around for two years… A lot happened in that time for me.

I released my own music for the first time!! I'm not quite where I wanna be with that but I was also severely depressed for much of the last two years so it's probably understandable. I've been workin' on new shit too and learning new tricks… I also performed at Do Better Fest twice, with DJ sets. I wanna sing more, but I've done good so far.

I made more friends!! I hang out with them a lot. I watched Steven Universe with them, that was a great time, that show rules. My social life is better by a lot. It's still a little wild to me that people care about me and that I'm in a good place, both because of this and because…

I finally left Kentucky, and moved to Minnesota!! I had to come on here and ask for money a lot in my last few months of living there both to live and to leave, and I felt awful. I feel very thankful that y'all came through, but asking for shit makes me feel guilty. I lucked out bigtime, finding housing up here looked dire for a while but I responded to the right listing and here I am. I also got a job as a barista, which has been kicking my ass but I'm also not worried about money anymore so that's great. The number of nights where I feel real bad and think "it's all over" has gone down substantially. I'm closer to all my friends which is a big plus. It's crazy how much more normal it is to be queer up here!! I love it. This is one of the best things that ever happened to me.

My biological father died!! It happened a few months ago and I feel great about it. Sometimes I just remember he's dead and I'll never have to deal with his shit again and I just breathe a sigh of relief. He'd actually moved up to Minnesota some years before I had, and I was a little ambiently worried about running into him on a train or something. No more! He fell over, bumped his head too hard, lights out. Ha ha!!

As for Song of Today... I feel right leaving it. I had wanted to do something similar for a bit before Cohost went public, but Twitter and Tumblr both didn't feel right in terms of the formatting. Cohost truly feels like its home, and I think it'll realistically go down with the ship. I'll have a YouTube playlist with all the songs, and I'll also make a spreadsheet with all the listings, because a few of them haven't survived. In particular, Dreams Come True doesn't let their songs exist on YouTube, and that one copyright freak still isn't letting evidence of Cookie's Bustle exist anywhere.

Well… That's it for me on here.
I'll be around on the other websites.
So don't think of it as goodbye.
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See you later!

I can relate to today's youth because I also spent my teen years beefing online with someone in their 30s

The final four Songs of Today have all been prepared as drafts.

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