I didn't post enough pictures of the cats, I think, before Kei passed. She did, unfortunately, today, because Kei had a bad heart and nobody knew about it, so when she went under anesthesia for her spay she fell asleep and never woke up.

I only had Kei for a few months and I wish I had gotten to spend more time with her. She was very curious, playful, energetic, and affectionate. She loved Yuri with her whole heart and Yuri loved her back. I loved both of them and I like to think that I gave Kei as good of a life as she could have asked for before she went.

Yuri is still here with me, and the two of us will get on as best we can. I wrote this maybe two hours after I got the news, an hour after I picked up Yuri and then cleaned my bathroom to distract myself. I'm not goign to edit this, I'm going to just put it here as testament to what I'm feeling right now, which is "bad."

I dunno. Podcast will go up tomorrow, Yuri will keep trying to lick her incision, I'm sure I'll wake up with a cat purring by me at some point in the morning. Life will go on, but I won't forget about the little calico with the star-stained eye.

Leo: mother. it's not just every day. it's so many times a day that the question has become meaningless. every time i tell you, yes, i AM the tiny little baby kitty boy. i AM the little ittle bittle teensy beensy baby child. i am the cat, the rat, the little baby bat. but you either don't listen, or you forget so consistently it feels pointless to continuously remind you. why do you keep asking? why do i have to bear the burden of your inattentiveness? i am, as you say, just a little baby. i feel as if you don't consider this when you choose to ask me such deeply personal, existential questions. meow. meow meow meow meow meow. meow meow.

Considering I saw #Oreo in the morning. She/he didn't come to eat til about 1 pm. I'm pretty shocked, but understandably so. She/he is scared of #Boots, sadly. Poor baby. Oreo didn't seem to eat a whole lot, but she/he does frequent the plate, so that's good.