I have struggled for ever so long to truly understand why sometimes, even when I am not ill (outside the normative baseline of T1D) I have my I am sick reaction.
An almost violent abhorrence to being touched. To being checked up on. To the point of closing down wanting to shut the door to my room, close out discord, just render myself as hostile for contact. Some form of isolationist raptor. Plunging at mind boggling speed towards unsuspecting prey and then leaving at high speed once I have it to devour.
Sometimes it’s just little things that grate when I’m like this. Fuck knows I need contact, maybe a few whys as well. There are so many affirmations thrown out towards me, but never a why. Give the whys please. Help me by doing so.
An almost violent abhorrence to being touched. To being checked up on. To the point of closing down wanting to shut the door to my room, close out discord, just render myself as hostile for contact. Some form of isolationist raptor. Plunging at mind boggling speed towards unsuspecting prey and then leaving at high speed once I have it to devour.
Sometimes it’s just little things that grate when I’m like this. Fuck knows I need contact, maybe a few whys as well. There are so many affirmations thrown out towards me, but never a why. Give the whys please. Help me by doing so.
