Part Eight of the Inverted AU
A JSE Fanfic
[This is part of a fic series I wrote from December 2018 to August 2021. Continuing the trend of flashbacks from the last chapter, we see things from the perspective of our little eye friend, Sam. We learn about their life, and how they've reacted to recent events in their friend Jack's life.]
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Like most beings, Sam couldn’t remember the moment they came into existence. But their first memory was still very vivid. They were lying on a flat wooden surface, looking at a big metal thing with a fabric top that was standing next to them. Later on, they realized that was a lamp. They remembered flicking their nerve and swiveling around to see a big face staring down at them, and they instinctively knew who it was. His name was Jack.
Jack was ten years old. He was a human with brown hair and blue eyes. Or, well, Sam could only see one of them. His right eye was hidden by a bandage. Sam somehow knew that he was shocked to see them. “Hey little guy,” he whispered. “You’re—you’re alive! Can you hear me?”
Sam squished their iris. They wanted to tell Jack that they could hear him. And just by thinking they wanted to tell him, they did. Jack gasped, and leaned back. “Oh my gosh,” he said. “Oh my god. I just—that was you?”
Sam told him it was. They wriggled. They rolled across the wooden surface. Somehow, they knew it was a desk. Jack’s desk. “Whoa, watch out! You might fall off!” Jack gently reached out and pushed them back from the edge. “This is—wow, this is a lot. Do you have a name?”
They didn’t. Not yet. They told Jack he could give them one if he wanted. Upon receiving this information, however that happened, Jack leaned back, thinking. “…Sam,” he said after a long moment. “Do you like that?”
The newly-christened Sam perked up, wagging their nerve. “Okay, I guess you do.” Jack shrugged. “I just don’t know if you’re a boy or a girl, so I thought that could work for both. Are you gonna…stay here long?”
Sam didn’t know. They didn’t know a lot, but somehow, at the same time, they knew a whole bunch. It was strange. “Well, you can stay here until you decide you don’t want to.” Jack laughed. “I mean, you’re sorta part of me. That’s weird. But, uh, I’ll have to hide you. Just in case my parents decide to call the government about you or somethin’.”
So that was how it all began. Jack repurposed an old shoe box and a hoodie he didn’t wear anymore, making a bed with a soft bottom for Sam to stay in. It also had a lid that he could put on top of the box to hide Sam from view if he needed to. At first, Sam was tiny, only the size of a normal eye (which was apparently still bigger than Jack thought it was). They couldn’t move much except spinning around to look at things and wriggling to make themself roll. Jack carried them around in his pocket, giving them a tour of the house when his parents and siblings weren’t around. He showed them the area outside too, including pointing out the woods you were never supposed to go in after dark.
Sam liked Jack a lot. He kept them safe, and talked with them about cool things. Jack explained to Sam about where they came from. Apparently, this was not a normal thing, and Jack didn’t know why it happened. Especially since he got a new one the next night, somehow. But Sam didn’t care. The point was that they were here now, and they were with Jack.
A few years passed. Jack’s family never found out about his little friend. Sam sometimes wondered if hiding was the best idea. Jack didn’t spend time with a lot of other humans. Occasionally, some that were his age would come over and hang out, but those visits never really lasted long. Sam wondered if, maybe, they introduced themself to at least his family, then Jack would have something cool to talk about. They worried that he wasn’t talking to a lot of people.
Until one day, about four years after Sam came around, Jack started tapping on the lid of their shoe box bed. “Sam! Are you awake?” he whispered. Sam reminded them that they didn’t really sleep, only rested. “Okay. There’s someone you need to meet. I’m gonna take the lid off now.” The cardboard was lifted away, letting in the familiar light of the lamp in Jack’s bedroom. Jack was looking into the box with an excited smile.
Sam was a bit bigger than they’d been, about the size of a golf ball. They’d also learned to jump, and were starting to figure out how to hover. So they leaped onto Jack’s outstretched hand and looked up at him expectantly. “I dunno why weird things always happen to me, but this is pretty cool. Ready?” Sam told him they were. “Okay.” He turned around.
There was someone sitting on Jack’s bed. Someone who looked just like Jack, but dressed darker, and with an eye patch. But Sam could tell something was different. They could feel a hum in the air, coming from the copy of Jack. A tingling sort of energy. It seemed…dark, but not bad. And Sam knew who it was.
“Sam, this is Anti,” Jack said. “I met him in the woods. Anti, this is Sam.”
“ Hęllo,” Anti said, nodding.
“I thought you two would get along!” Jack chattered. “Because Sam’s an eye, it’s like they’re a septic eye, and that matches your name! I think you’re also the only ones of…well, whatever you are. And mysterious. I still dunno why Sam exists, but they do, and they’re like, my child or something.”
Anti just stared. Sam bounced happily, trying to get him to smile. They got the feeling that he didn’t do that much. Then Sam asked Jack if Anti would be staying with them. “I dunno,” Jack said, shrugging. “Hey Anti, Sam wants to know if you’re gonna be staying.”
“Y͏es,” Anti said simply. “I ͢ha͟v͡e ͏t̴o. I t̸hink, it's̕ bee͏n a long̡ ̵t̶ime. ͞But if ̶you d̢on̷’t w̸a͏nt to se͟e̶ m͡e, I can̡ hide.”
“I mean, Sam’s been hiding from my family and friends for years, but you don’t have to hide from me.” Jack’s eyes were alight. “I’d be happy to spend time with you. Do you play video games?”
Anti looked a bit taken aback at Jack’s eagerness. “I͞…do͟n’t͞ kn̨o͢w̴ wh͠at̕ those͟ ar̵e,” he said.
“I’ll show you, then! If you’re anything like me, you’ll love them.”
Sam watched Jack go on with enthusiasm. They hadn’t seen him this animated with others in a long, long time. Hopefully Anti would be good for him. At the very least, they knew he wouldn’t be bad.
And for the longest time, it was just the three of them. Anti gradually began warming up to Jack, reflecting his energy and slowly coming to life. Jack and Sam found out that Anti could affect electronics, including hacking consoles to win while playing fighting games. He took a special interest in computers, liking the possibilities they presented and the way they connected so easily to each other. He even started looking a bit like a computer glitch at times. Sam liked him. He was a bit strange, and they weren’t sure how he felt about them, but it was clear that he cared about Jack.
Then Jack went off to college. Sam wanted to come, but Jack wouldn’t let them. “Dorms are a lot smaller than the house,” he explained. “And we’ll be around a lot more people. I don’t want to risk it. Anti’s insisting on coming, but he has his thing where he ghost-disappears. But you’d have to spend almost all your time in the box.”
Sam didn’t like it, but they understood. Jack fixed up their box bed, and told them they could have the run of his room while he was away. Then he left, and Sam was alone.
It wasn’t necessarily a bad thing. Sam figured out a lot about themself. For example, they learned how to fly. They practiced every day so they could show Jack when he came back for the winter holidays. And something else…Sam realized they knew things. A lot of things that they shouldn’t be able to. One day, when they were flying through the halls of Jack’s house, they got the feeling that they needed to hide or something bad would happen. And sure enough, as soon as they ducked under a lampshade, Jack’s mom came walking down the hall with no warning at all. And that wasn’t the last time something like that happened. It took a while before Sam realized that, while they didn’t exactly know why, they knew what things they should do in order to make things go right.
Sam was really excited to tell Jack about this, but it didn’t exactly go according to plan. When Jack came home for winter holidays, after saying hi to his family and unpacking, he immediately went outside around the back of the house. Sam knew they should follow him, so they did. And once they were a long way from the house, on the edge of the woods, they heard shouting.
“You can’t fucking chill for even one second, can you?!” Jack was yelling. “Can’t let me go live my life, huh?!”
“Not if ‘living your life’ means hanging out with people like that!” It also sounded like Jack’s voice. That meant it was Anti.
“‘Like that’?! You don’t know anything about him! You always run off the moment he appears!”
“Oh, well, forgive me if I don’t want to associate! You shouldn’t either!”
“He’s my roommate! He’s literally done nothing wrong, NOTHING to make you freak out like this! I think you’re just jealous.”
“I am not—look, maybe he hasn’t done anything yet, but I just know he will one day. He’s got that vibe. Sure, he’s a decent guy now, but I don’t think he’ll stay that way for long.”
“And do you have any proof of this besides a weird feeling?”
Silence.
“That’s what I thought. Look, if he bothers you that much, just don’t come up to campus with me next semester. Stay here with Sam.”
“Ņo̢.”
“Well, alright then. But until something bad happens, stop ragging on Chase. I’ve got to go say hi to Sam now. I…I miss them.”
“You won’t have to go all the way up to the house. They’ve been listening this whole time.”
“Wh—”
The jig was up. Sam poked out from around the tree they were hiding behind, being met with a very startled Jack and a very grumpy Anti. They said hello to Jack.
“Hey, Sam!” Jack beamed as his eye landed on his shoulder, snuggling into his jumper. “You—you’re flying! That’s so cool! When did you learn how to do that?”
Sam told him they figured it out about two months ago. But that wasn’t important. They wanted to know what Jack was so upset about.
“Oh. That.” Jack glanced over to Anti, who scowled and disappeared in his computer-glitch way. “Well, Anti doesn’t like my roommate up on campus. For completely unjustified reasons. Chase is a good guy, and Anti keeps messing with the electrical systems whenever I hang out with him, then claiming that it’s for my own good.”
Sam thought that Anti was a bit jealous. But, they told Jack, they also had a bad feeling. Not like something was wrong, but like something could go wrong at any given moment. They advised Jack to be careful.
“Thanks, buddy. Hey, tell me about everything that happened while I was gone. Did I miss out on anything?”
In the end, Anti admitted to being a bit envious and protective of Jack. He just hadn’t wanted him to get hurt and freaked out. But he stubbornly held on to his bad feeling about the whole situation. He ended up following Jack back to college for the next semester, and for the whole school year after that. Until Jack’s parents finally moved out of the house and gave it to Jack, who decided to commute to campus for the last two years.
And then, Jack had an idea. It was a simple idea, one inspired by seeing others do the same. He started a YouTube channel. It was called ‘jacksepticeye,’ as sort of a reference to both Sam and Anti, and he played video games on it. And…it made him happy. Jack came alive whenever the cameras were rolling, and Sam was in turn so happy to see it.
Things changed. The channel grew. Jack moved out of the house in the woods and into an apartment in the city. Naturally, Sam and Anti followed. Jack started making friends online, and this time Anti didn’t interfere. He kept up interaction with the viewers, gradually growing them into a community.
Then there was a phone call. Sam listened as Jack talked. “Hello, it’s Jack. Wait. Chase?!” Jack smiled. “Oh my god, how are you? How’s Stacy?…Really? When did you have a second one?…Damn, you should’ve invited me to the baby shower…Not much, today I’ve just been making videos for YouTube…Yeah, dude! It’s pretty fun, you should try it sometime…Oh yeah, sure. Where do you live now?…No way, that’s where I am!…Yes!…Well, I’m free this weekend. What about you?…Yeah, that works for me. How about we meet in the park and figure out what to do from there?…See you then, dude.” When Jack hung up, he noticed Sam watching him. “You okay, Sam? Your glow kinda faded.”
Sam didn’t know what to say. How could they tell him that their “something bad could happen” feeling had suddenly changed into a “something bad is probably coming soon” feeling? They’d never even told him about how much they knew, and they figured out they knew a lot since that first semester of college. So, in the end, they merely told Jack to be careful.
But he wasn’t.
Maybe he just couldn’t see. Maybe his optimism was blinding him. But things were different now. Chase had changed. Jack didn’t notice, but Sam did. And so did Anti. But of course, that only gave rise to the old tensions, to Jack once again thinking Anti wanted Jack all to himself.
Still, as time passes, people begin to drift apart. Jack, despite feeling sorry for everything that happened to Chase, found himself spending less time with him, or any of Chase’s new housemates. Sam was sure this was a good thing, but if that was the case, then why was the “something bad” getting closer?
And one night, Jack disappeared. Sam hadn’t seen what had happened, they’d been resting, but when they came out of their newest box bed, there was a day-old pumpkin on a table in Jack’s recording room, and a knife with blood on it.
They waited for Jack to come back. Maybe they waited too long. But they weren’t an impulsive eye, just a patient one. Which turned out to work against them this time. A month and a half after Halloween, they set off to find Jack. They knew they would be able to; they were a part of him, and could always sense where he was. They followed the invisible tie between the two of them, ending up at a big house on the edge of town that creeped them out. They flew up to one of the second-story windows and looked through the glass to see Jack, asleep in a bed.
The bad feeling was there. Like dread, but instead of waiting for something to happen, they felt a confirmation of the worst news. They screamed at Jack, and he bolted upright, looking around the room. When he saw the little green eye at the window, he gasped, then rushed over to open it.
“Sam!” He said the name like it was an old friend he’d forgotten, but just met again. “There you are! I was wondering if I should go back to get you, but maybe it wasn’t the best idea to move you here, after all, we’ve kept you hidden this long, haven’t we? And eventually I must have…forgotten…” the grin that had been on his face slid off, but he found it again. “Great to see you, buddy!”
Jack had a dull look in his eyes. It was subtle, not something you would notice if you didn’t know Jack well. But Sam was on the same wavelength as him. They asked Jack where he’d gone, and why.
“Oh. I uh…Chase and his friends needed help with the rent. And I figured, hey why not, it doesn’t cost anymore than the apartment. I…I should have told you. I’m sorry.” He perked up. “But you’re here now! We can be together again!”
Sam asked about Anti.
“Oh, don’t worry, he can’t find us here. We’ll be safe.”
That set off instant alarm bells. Sam shrank back a bit. Jack wouldn’t say something like that about his friend. What had happened while they were away?
“Hey, it’s fine, everything is fine,” Jack said softly. “We’re safe, and we’re together. You can come inside, and everything will be fine.”
Sam was a bit scared. They had to admit it. But…something was wrong with Jack. They had to figure out what that was. They had to undo it. So, with a flick of their nerve-tail, they darted inside.
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Maybe the whole thing had been a bad idea. But they knew it had been their best option at the time. Even if, nearly two years later, they were stuck in a tank of greenish liquid in a house full of people who gave Sam bad vibes every time they looked at them. They were sure that the other possible futures had been worse, even if they didn’t know exactly what those were.
It was the third day of May when Sam decided that they finally needed to do something.
The house was quiet. Sam was resting at the bottom of the tank. They never truly slept, just stopped moving and went into a sort of easily-disturbed chance. Which was why they were instantly on high alert the moment the house’s front door unlocked. It was two o’clock a.m. Someone was home early. It wasn’t Chase or the mustache one, those two hadn’t left today. Sam curled their nerve-tail around them and waited.
The door creaked open, shutting quickly the moment the man walked inside. He sighed, taking off his glasses and polishing them on the edge of his shirt before replacing them. Then he threw the bag he’d been carrying over onto the couch. It landed with a light thump, making Sam flinch, floating up about a foot in the liquid before settling down again. They didn’t think it was enough for him to notice, but apparently it was. The man’s eyes instantly locked onto the tank. He grinned, walking right over.
Sam didn’t like the doctor one. To be fair, they didn’t like any of them, but at least Chase, the hoodie one, and the mustache one were nice to them, and mostly to Jack. The masked one also freaked them out at times, but he wasn’t around very often. Granted, the doctor one also spent a lot of time out of the house, but he was around just enough to give Sam the creeps.
The doctor kneeled on the floor and tapped on the glass of the tank. “I think it was asleep before,” he muttered. He wasn’t talking to Sam, he never did. “Did we figure out if it sleeps? There are times when it does not move.”
And this small tidbit was a prime example of why the doctor one scared Sam. One, he never called them “they,” or even any other pronoun besides just “it.” Two, he was way too interested in how Sam worked for the curiosity to be merely a wondering. And three, he just. Kept. Staring at them.
“It maybe heard me come inside,” the doctor said conversationally. “I’m thinking that maybe the nerve ending has been adapted to take up other senses, like hearing and smell. No, no, no, it definitely has, it has smelled food in those times Jack has taken it out of the tank.” He tilted his head, watching as Sam rose up and started swimming in small circles around the bottom of the tank, still doing their best to keep looking at him while also working off nervous energy. “It doesn’t have a problem with being in the liquid, so I do not think it needs to breathe. Or maybe it can breathe through this, somehow. But if it breathes, then what does it take in? Does it have a little heart system that pumps the oxygen blood? Does it have blood?”
Slowly, his eyes drifted back over to the bag he’d tossed onto the sofa. Then, he looked around the empty room. Once he’d determined that it was clear of whoever he was looking for, he stood up and walked over to the bag, unzipping it and digging around inside. “No, I know that, Jack,” he said. “But you are not here right now. And so you cannot stop me, can you? You have to wake up and get down here, and not just lecture thoughts.” The doctor managed to find what he was looking for. He smiled, then half-ran back over to the tank in the corner.
Sam’s pupil widened as they realized what the doctor was holding. That—that was a long needle. And now the doctor was unlatching the hatch on the top of the tank. They dove down to the bottom, curling their nerve-tail over their top. The tank was a little shorter than chest-level for everyone in the house, he wouldn’t be able to reach the bottom. Right?
Nothing happened. The tank lid was open, but the doctor hadn’t even tried to get to them. Sam peeked out from underneath their nerve-tail. They floated up to take a better look. He’d…gone? He wouldn’t do that, would he?
Nope, he was coming back. He’d just gone into the kitchen for a moment, and now he was returning with something new in his hands. Sam dove back down to the bottom, resuming their position.
He was talking. “Do not say that to me, if it works, then it works. The same thing will happen in the end regardless of tools. You will see. I know what I am doing, I am good doctor. And when I show you these things I will find out, you will not tell me otherwise again.” He was right next to the tank. Sam curled up tighter.
There was a splash. Sam briefly glanced up to see a pair of metal things reaching for them. They panicked, fleeing. But seeing as they couldn’t go up or risk getting caught, it wasn’t a long chase. The things clamped down on them, pulling them up, up, up out of the liquid.
“Ack! Maybe this was not the best idea, I am wet now.” The doctor shrugged. “But does not matter, I got it out, didn’t I? Though I will have to wash these tongs afterward.”
Sam wriggled, nerve-tail flailing in panic. It did absolutely nothing. The tongs were holding them so tight, they were sure they would have bruises afterward.
“And now, for the sample.” With one quick jab, the doctor plunged the needle into Sam’s body, right on their top. They stopped struggling, if only in pure and utter shock at the piercing pain. Tears began forming along their iris.
It could’ve only lasted a few seconds, but it was a few seconds too long. Eventually, the needle was retracted, and Sam was dropped unceremoniously back into the tank. They drifted to the bottom and lay there, tears mixing with the fluid around them. The lid slammed shut.
The doctor paid them no mind. He was more interested in the glowing, bright green fluid that now filled the plastic part of the needle. “What? I have never seen anything like this!” He was tapping the needle urgently, practically bouncing with a big smile on his face. “We need to figure it out right now. Nevermind that, we can go back to the back rooms without opening the clinic. This is—is—is very important!” And without another word, he grabbed his bag and left through the front door once again.
Sam couldn’t do it. They couldn’t stay here. They’d be no use to Jack if these guys kept sticking needles in them. And they were sure that it was going to continue. Even though it was a large needle, it still didn’t hold a lot of liquid. The doctor would be back, maybe soon.
But how could they get out of here? The tank only opened from the outside. They’d tried to lift up the lid on their own, but it was too heavy, and latched shut. They’d need someone else. But who would help them?
After a moment of quiet shuddering, it hit Sam like a bolt of lightning. They’d forgotten about him. Even though he kept causing trouble for the people in the house, they’d completely forgotten him. They’d been so worried about keeping Jack safe and trying to get him out, that they hadn’t stopped to think about the other person trying to get Jack out.
Sam had never tried contacting someone other than Jack before. There had never been a reason. But now, limp on the bottom of the tank, they tried to switch frequencies. They thought about the ever-present hum they sensed whenever he was around, about the feeling of static racing along their nerves, about dark impossibility and green light. Then, they reached out like they would with Jack, sending out a cry for help, a plea for anything. For a moment, nothing happened. And then, with an electric snap, something connected. It was only a second before the connection broke, but Sam was sure it was enough.
And only a few moments later, there was a CRACK of the wards breaking, and between one glance and the next, Anti was standing in the middle of the living room, looking around like he had no idea what he was doing there. He looked…different. Not only because of the new scarf, but…actually, he looked pretty close to how he was when Sam first met him. All jagged edges and blank stares.
Anti finally caught sight of the tank. He didn’t bother walking over, just did his glitch thing and ended up sitting next to it. “…Sam?” he asked, a note of surprise in his voice. “You…that was you? I knew it was important, but…” Silence. “…Guess you could only do it once? In a moment of desperation, maybe. Well, are you hurt?”
Sam weakly swished their nerve-tail. It was the best they could manage.
Anti’s eye hardened. “B̢a͡s͏tąr̷d̴s,” he muttered. “Okay, Sam, do that again if you want me to get you out of there.” After a moment, another, weaker swish. “Fuck, it’s that bad, huh? That you have to leave him? Well, fine then. Maybe this’ll finally snap him out of it. “
He stood up, giving the tank a quick examination. He grinned impishly. His hand glitched, and there was a knife there. It twirled into a stabbing position, and then—
It shattered. It shouldn’t have, the glass was strong enough to take a stab. But it completely broke, and green liquid rushed out, soaking Anti’s clothes. But that didn’t matter, as they were dry again with another glitch. Completely ignoring the jagged edges of the hole he’d created, Anti reached inside, breaking off a few more pieces, and single-handedly scooped Sam up. He held them close to his chest, and their dim glow brightened a bit. The two of them were opposites, but they were on the same spectrum instead of opposing ones. Thus, just being close could help charge Sam up. They had always been glad of that. Other Sams had Antis that had the reverse effect.
Upstairs, someone was yelling. Anti’s head snapped toward the staircase. He could hear footsteps coming. “Well, we’re gonna leave now,” he said.
He glitched out of the house and ended up on a city street a few blocks away. It was empty, which he was glad of. He looked down at the little eye in his hand. “I’m gonna give you time to recharge a bit,” he explained, “before I take you to where I’ve been staying. Got it?” Sam’s tail flicked, already a bit more energized. “Okay.” Anti reached to the side. His hand disappeared into a glitch in the world, pulling out a backpack like he’d just taken it out of an open school locker. “Gonna have to hide you in here in case someone sees us. Got it?” Another flick. Anti unzipped the top of the backpack and gently placed Sam inside before swinging it over his back.
Where to go now? Well, there was a chance that they’d send someone after Sam, though he couldn’t imagine what they even wanted with them. So somewhere a bit off the beaten path, but still public. A few of them had issues with being caught in public.
Choosing a direction at random, Anti started off. He’d find somewhere. And then he’d get Sam safe. Which, even though they weren’t Jack, was clearly a victory. That’d show them to mess with his…well. To mess with Jack and Sam. And it was a step in the right direction.