Part Four of the Switch AU
A JSE Fanfic
[This is part of an ongoing fic series I started in April 2019. Anti finds himself suffering from a series of strange nightmares, which may be connected to the earlier incidents his friends went through.]
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The phone was ringing. Or actually, not ringing, Anti kept his cell on vibrate. But the buzzing was loud enough to get Anti to look away from the computer screen where he was editing a video. He checked the caller ID, then after a moment of considering, he answered. “Why the fuck are you calling me at two in the morning?”
Schneep was unfazed by the lack of a greeting. “Why the fuck are you still awake at two in the morning?”
“Hypocrite,” Anti said, voice monotone. “I’m editing. Sleep is for the weak, all that. Uhhh, answer to my question? Now please.”
There was a muffled huff on the other side. “I just remembered that I have to ask you something. On Wednesday, Jackie has a free shift, so we were planning on meeting at Waffle Cone around noon. Do you want to come?”
“Two questions.” Anti turned back to the computer, clicking automatically as he cut out marked sections of footage. “One, I thought you had work on Wednesdays? Did Latte Lake finally fire you?”
“I traded my hours.” Schneep sounded like he did not appreciate the slight at his ability to do his day job. “What else?”
“Is anyone else coming?”
“Ah…” Schneep hesitated. “Yes…Jameson and Marvin will be there.”
“I’m good.”
“You need more than two friends, Anti!” Schneep snapped. “It did not go so bad with them last time, did it? Until you left early.” The last statement sounded slightly accusatory.
“I’m fine, really,” Anti said, shrugging even though Schneep couldn’t see him. “I’m not lonely.”
“Maybe so, but it is not healthy. For your mind! Humans are social, we need interaction.”
“Volt, please, I double-majored in psychology, don’t try to pull shit like that on me.” He’d tried to diagnose himself often enough.
For a moment, there was silence on the other end. Well, actually, there were some muttered words, but Anti wasn’t sure they were in English. “Anti, for the love of god, you are going to come to this thing and talk to people other than Jackie or me.”
“Or what?” Anti grinned.
Another silence. And then: “Or I will teach William how to say swear words.”
Anti froze. “You motherfucker.”
Laughter on the other end. “Honestly I am surprised he doesn’t already—”
“I soundproof my walls for a reason, bitch!” Anti sighed. “Okay, fine, Wednesday at twelve?” Three days from now. He didn’t have anything going on that day. Well, to be fair, he never really had much going on.
“Yes. We will see you then.”
“Cool. I’m hanging up now.” And he did. He opened up the calendar on his phone and made a note: Wednesday 12pm: Blackmailed into lunch.
Turned out that the call had ended at an opportune time. There was a small knock on his recording room door. Anti spun around in his chair and walked over, opening it and revealing a small, redheaded boy in dinosaur pajamas, clutching a pink sheep plushie. “Hey Will,” Anti said softly. “What’re you doing up? Tomorrow’s Monday, you have school.”
Will looked down, scuffing his feet on the carpet. “I had a bad dream.”
“Oh, that sucks.” Anti kneeled down on the carpet so he’d be level with Will. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Yeah…” Will hugged the sheep plushie closer. “I’ve, uh, been having pretty weird dreams sometimes. But this one went bad. In the dream, I was with this strange man, and he was really gray and crying but he was really nice. We were in a house, but I dunno where it was. I was exploring for a while, but then I got to the basement. The guy was there again, but he was different. He looked happy, but I don’t think he was. He said he’d leave me alone for a while, and that he was gonna visit you.”
“Me?” Anti asked.
“He said, ‘your dad.’ He had a nasty smile, Dad. I told him to leave you alone, but he laughed. Things got very dark, and he said that when you weren’t around anymore I could stay with him, but I didn’t want to! He was scary…an’ I don’t want you to go away…” Will rubbed his teary eyes on the sheep plushie.
“Hey.” Anti pulled Will closer. Will closed the rest of the distance, hesitantly leaning into him. It was a silent ask for a hug, since Will knew Anti wasn’t always comfortable with that. But he was this time. Anti wrapped Will up in a warm hug, feeling his head burrow into his shoulder. “Maybe it was scary, but it was just a dream. It’s over now, and it’s not gonna come back. And I’m not going anywhere.”
“…promise?” The plea was a bit muffled.
“Of course I promise.” Anti rubbed Will’s back reassuringly. “Hey, if you want, you can stay with me on the sleeper sofa for the rest of the night. I was just going to bed.”
“You should go to sleep earlier, Dad.”
Anti laughed. “Maybe. But do you want to?”
“Yeah…”
“Alright.” Anti pulled away from the hug. “Let’s go then.” The editing could wait. He saved the project, it wouldn’t do any harm to let his computer go to sleep. And he was happy he’d taken the time to change into pajamas earlier, he wouldn’t want Will to wait and probably get even more scared.
So it was only a few minutes later when both of them were asleep, Will snuggled up to Anti’s side on the mattress that folded out of the couch. Though the apartment had two bedrooms, Anti had turned one into his recording room and slept in the main living area instead. He gave the other to Will, of course. Kids need their own space.
Since both of them were asleep, neither of them noticed the person sitting on the foot of the mattress, watching them.
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It’s windy. Gusts are blowing his hair in front of his face. Frequently. He can hardly see where he’s going. But between the moments of obscured vision, he’s walking against the wind, through empty city streets. This is not the city he’s come to know in recent years. But it’s familiar.
There is nothing. The buildings are hollow shells with glassless windows, and any cars are abandoned. He doesn’t know where he’s going, just that it’s important that he gets there. He’s been walking for a long time. There is blood in his mouth.
The city is overtaken by a gray fog, hiding everything from view. He stops walking, only to find that his heart stops when he does and suddenly he can’t breathe. The only way to keep that from happening is to keep going through the motions, even though there is nothing ahead. Some parts of him want to look behind him. But other parts warn him that there is nothing there. Or worse, there is something.
Movements are slowing. Something has grabbed his legs, but he is scared to look down at whatever’s dragging him. It feels bony and cold, and so very, very heavy. He thinks he knows what it is. Or who it was.
The fog clears, and the city drops. Sidewalks, buildings, roads, everything, all ending at a sudden cliff, like someone cut a part of the city out. There is not darkness at the bottom, instead, more gray fog. He can’t go forward. But the weight is gone. So he turns around.
There is someone there. Standing in the quiet. They stare at each other. Until there is a feather-light whisper falling in his mind.
“/You deserve this./”
The bony weight returns and pulls him into the depths.
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When Anti woke up, he found he was standing at the window. There were only two in the apartment, and this one was located in the main area. It was open. His hand was on the sill. He quickly jerked it backwards.
He blinked and shook his head to clear it. How did he get here…? Did he sleepwalk? And…open the window in his sleep? He rushed to close it again, firmly. The sky outside was the type of blue between the usual daytime color and the midnight variety. He glanced at the clock. Five thirty. He glanced at the sofa. Will was still asleep, the sheep plushie flung across the mattress. The plushie was named Brian, which Anti had always found funny.
Anti sighed, smiling slightly. There were a couple more hours before Will had to wake up for school, and therefore before he had to wake up to walk him to the school bus. He could put aside one instance of sleepwalking, wait to see if it happened again. He quickly crossed the room, put Brian the sheep plushie back in Will’s arms, and climbed into bed again.
Yet, even though he promised himself he’d forget it, an uneasy feeling lingered, and he didn’t actually sleep for the couple hours he had left.
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Three days later, Anti walked into the establishment known as The Waffle Cone and immediately wanted to leave again. Why did he agree to this? Why didn’t he break that agreement? He yawned, then looked around the main room. It was pretty empty on weekdays, so it was easy to see the group of four sitting at a table by a window. Also Jackie was waving at him and shouting “Hey Anti over here! Over here!” Anti inhaled deeply, braced himself, and walked over.
“You made it!” Jackie stood up, hesitantly reaching out, waiting for the signal to continue. Anti shook his head. This wasn’t a good day for contact. Jackie withdrew, continuing to talk like nothing happened. “I told them you would come. I mean, free food and ice cream, what’s not to like?”
Anti mumbled a response, pulling a chair over from one of the other four-chair tables and sitting down with the others. Jackie was wearing his hoodie and round glasses, like always. His hair was tied back with a sparkly red clip that he’d probably bought for his daughter, since it wasn’t his normal style. Sitting next to him was Schneep, wearing a long-sleeved gray shirt and his blue scarf. He greeted Anti with a single wave.
Then there were the two other people, JJ and Marvin. Anti had seen them a total of three times before, but they were memorable. JJ with his thick mustache and posh accent, Marvin with his thick accent and posh clothes. Not to mention the last time Anti had seen these two, they’d been in the middle of a…strange situation, one neither of them was discussing with anyone else, apparently. The two of them were sitting opposite Jackie and Schneep, currently having a discussion between the two of them.
“We already ordered food, but we have free orders of fries!” Jackie said, pushing a basket toward Anti. Even though The Waffle Cone was technically an ice cream place, they sold food as well. “You can get something when the server comes back, if you want.”
“…sure, yeah.” Anti pulled the basket the rest of the way towards him, picking through the fries absentmindedly. He blinked slowly. Every time he closed his eyes, he was tempted to just keep them that way and pass out. His head felt heavy…
“Anti!”
Anti shot upward at the sound of Jackie’s shout. “Hmm, what?”
“Are…you okay?” Jackie asked, brows lowered in concern. “You were zoning out.”
“’M just tired,” Anti mumbled. “Haven’ been sleeping well lately.” Kind of true. When he actually went to sleep, he slept like a log. Except for the dreams. The strange, vivid yet surreal dreams that happened every night, every time he slept. They were…disconcerting, but they wouldn’t be such a problem if it wasn’t what happened when he woke up. One time when he woke up he was in the kitchenette area of his apartment, his hand resting on the knife block. Another time he was leaning over the bathroom sink full of water, his face close to the water and getting closer. The most recent dream ended with him waking up in his recording room with his gun in his hand. Which was especially worrying since he kept that in a locked box whenever it wasn’t with him.
Because of these strange wake up calls, he tried to not sleep at all. He passed out eventually, but he set an alarm on his phone for every fifteen minutes to help wake him up. He was sleeping through it more and more often, though. It got to the point where he scheduled an appointment with a therapist yesterday, but it wouldn’t happen until next week. Hopefully he wouldn’t do anything bad while sleepwalking.
Schneep looked over at him. “You look like shit.”
“Gee, thanks.” Anti threw a fry at him. It missed.
“I think your sleep cycle has been thrown off,” Schneep continued, undeterred. “It is important to have a regular one. Right, Jackie?”
“Right,” Jackie agreed. “If you have to, you can stay up late, but just make sure to do it at the same time every night. Oh, and Volt?” Jackie glared at him. “You know the expression ‘the pot calling the kettle black’? This is it, you’ve just made a prime example of that expression.”
Schneep made a face at him.
Meanwhile, JJ and Marvin had finished talking about whatever they were talking about. JJ glanced over at Anti. “Oh goodness, are you alright?”
“Fine,” Anti said firmly.
“Oh I see.” JJ was clearly not convinced.
“He’s been having trouble sleeping,” Jackie explained.
“Fuck off with that!” Anti threw a fry at Jackie. It missed again. “You don’t get to say the thing, I get to say the thing and I don’t want to.”
“Well, I’m sorry about that,” JJ said patiently. “Obviously you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to, but there are some types of tea that are supposed to help with that. If you don’t want to use pills or the like. I have some boxes I can give to you.”
“No, I’m good.” First off, he wasn’t in the habit of taking free things from people, they always wanted something back even if they said they didn’t. Second off, he was trying to avoid sleep. “I prefer coffee anyway.”
“Ah, a man after m’own heart,” Marvin popped in. Schneep nodded.
“Y’know, maybe that’s your problem,” Jackie said. “Too much caffeine.”
“Can we drop it, please?!” Anti hoped he was imagining the pleading note in his voice. “Let’s talk about something else. You two!” He pointed at JJ and Marvin. “Talk about something.”
Marvin raised an eyebrow. “A bit upstage, aren’ ye?”
“Oh yea, far shure I am,” Anti drawled, thickening his own Irish accent to an absurd degree. "Yer real bang on there, now feck off.”
Marvin grinned, which was the opposite effect Anti had intended. He leaned back in his chair, grabbing the cane that was always by his side and twirling it loosely. “Well, if y’want somethin’ to talk about, I’m still fairly new to this city, in a way. Anythin’ locals would know?”
“‘New in a way’?” Anti repeated.
“I’ve been here before, but ‘t was a long time ago,” Marvin admitted. “T’ings have changed. Jems has been a help, but more t’oughts and opinions is always a good t’ing, nobody knows everythin’, after all.”
Anti smiled. “Oh yeah, I can give you a grand tour. We can go down to the Kelly Bridge—”
“Anti, for the love of god,” Schneep muttered. Meanwhile, Jackie had flopped face-first on the table.
“—maybe drive down past the house on Aspen Street—”
Jackie popped back up again. “Nooooooooo!”
JJ’s head whipped over toward Anti. “Don’t you even joke about that.”
“Oh, wow, okay.” Anti raised his hands. “Just making a suggestion.” The corner of his mouth was twitching.
“The Kelly Bridge is s’posed to be haunted, right?” Marvin asked. “I r’member that one. About the bride and groom? Is this…house in the same vein? Are you plannin’ t’get me haunted?”
“No, I don’t think you’d get haunted. Just freaked out,” Anti shrugged. “This city actually has a lot of urban legends. The house on Aspen Street is probably the most well-known—”
“Because it’s freaky!” Jackie half-yelled. “Dr. Orwell, at my work, her cousin moved into that house and then died two weeks later. Nobody lives there NOW because everyone who has somehow died in under a month!”
“Not everyone.” Anti leaned on the table, grinning. He was relishing this, the way everyone was captivated by his story. Finally, a high in the last few days of just low moments. “It all started with that case about four years ago…”
“Oh god, I remember that.” JJ covered his mouth. “That was terrible.”
“What case?” Schneep asked, suddenly paying attention. “You’ve told me the creep story about the house, but never mentioned a case.”
“Really? Guess it never really occurred to me…” Anti frowned. “It happened about a year before you moved here, so you wouldn’t have heard it on the news like the rest of us.” Anti, Jackie, and apparently JJ had all been living in the city at the time. “I must’ve just assumed someone told you.”
“No, nobody talks about it,” JJ said firmly. “Because it’s bad enough that it happened, we don’t need to keep reviving it.”
“…but what if we do?”
“Anti, stop, please, the food’s going to be arriving soon and I don’t want to think about this while eating.” Jackie sounded tired of these antics.
“No, t’is sounds int’resting, keep goin’,” Marvin was leaning forward, clearly intrigued.
“Nah, I don’t want to push Jackie too far,” Anti waved it away. “Otherwise Schneep’ll punch me with his zappy gloves.”
“I don’t have them,” Schneep piped up. His eyes narrowed. “…right now.”
“Yeah, see? We can talk about something else. Like, uhh…” Anti trailed off. “Fuck, I dunno.” His brain was still a bit full of mush. Couldn’t come up with anything new.
Luckily, he didn’t have to. Food arrived at that very moment, and he had to admit that the rest of the time spent there was pretty fun. He probably would’ve enjoyed it more if he wasn’t fighting to keep his eyes open.
Still, he half-wished it lasted longer. Social engagement gave him some form of stimulus to keep him awake. Once he returned home, he put on loud music, tried playing more games, turned up the volume of his alarms, walked in circles around the main area, and it was still barely enough to keep him up long enough to pick up Will from the school bus stop.
The next few hours were an exhausted, lengthy blur. He tried his best, he really did. He managed to get all the way through dinner with Will. But soon after he sent Will to bed, he realized he was going to pass out, and there was nothing he could do about it. And that was the last thing he remembered.
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He’s in a dark room. There is no sign of light, not even aimless drifting in from windows or under door cracks. Someone is laughing. He walks forward, and runs into a table. His hands search the surface, grabbing a small rectangular object. It flickers, and lights. He still can’t see enough, but he can’t lose the small sphere of safety he gained.
There is a doorway, leading to a hallway. He walks through it. Somehow, even in the dark, he knows that this place is run down, that the family pictures on the walls have faces that have faded to gray.
Is that what will happen to him? Will he fade? He doesn’t think anyone would take care to keep him around. It was only a matter of time, wasn’t it?
He doesn’t like thinking about that fact—because he knows it is a fact—and so he concentrates on the solid here and now. There is still laughter. It sounds like a child, or perhaps children. He can pick out a familiar giggle, and he speeds up. He can’t leave him behind.
“/But you will./”
The hallway doesn’t end. It just changes. Now there is the smell of copper, thick and cloying. It’s on him, it’s on his hands, and it won’t come off. He still walks forward.
And he is sure there is someone here.
There’s a movement, a gust of wind, and his light flickers out. He can’t get it back on, though he tries. He looks around the dark. “Where are you?! What do you want from me?!”
Someone touches his shoulder. He gasps, and flails away, hitting the wall of the hallway. He presses his back to it and looks and looks and looks and looks and
“/You’re going to die, you know./”
It’s a statement of fact. But it sounds like someone is very happy this fact exists.
“I-I-I’m not—”
“/I’ll tell your kid that daddy loves him. /Now goodbye./”
The voice is gone. But there’s light—light in the distance, faint yellow, he can see it. He walks toward it—
Someone screamed.
He blinked.
“ANTI!”
The light is coming closer—there’s a loud deep noise and a screeching sound—the lights are in front of him—they’re very…nice—
Someone tackled him with oof-inducing force. Suddenly he was rolling against a rough, hard surface that scratches at him through his clothes. The world became streaks of black and gray and blue until the motion stopped, and he was looking up at the night sky.
“What were you thinking?!”
That’s a familiar voice. Familiar…yeah. Who was it again?
“Anti! Fucking answer me!” A face, half-covered by a black mask. A man wearing a gray coat with glowing blue spots. The man grabbed him by the shoulders and started shaking him.
“I…” Anti closed his eyes slowly. He was really, really tired…
“Scheiße—Anti, no!” More shaking.
Anti opened his eyes to look at the man again. He hummed. “…Volt,” he said after a while, and started closing his eyes again. He was so tired that the spots where he hit the hard, rough surface only dully ached, when they should’ve really hurt, even burned.
“Yes! Yes, that’s me! Anti, what happened?! Can you tell me that? Tell me!”
“I was…it was dark…was looking for Will…in the hallway…” The words sound a bit slurred.
“What? What hallway?!”
“…dunno…” He could feel himself falling into the deep waters of sleep again.
“Something’s wrong. Something’s wrong, isn’t it? Anti, hang on, don’t fall asleep, I have to—I have to take you somewhere. Do not fall asleep!”
But it was too late. He was falling already. His head tilted sideways, and the last thing he saw was a man in gray.
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“I think he’s awake?”
“Why is that a question? Is he or is he not?”
“I don’t know. He’s kind of responding?”
“Maybe you shoul’ just slap him.”
“I actually tried that, he didn’t even seem to notice.”
“May I ask what happened?”
“I do not know how to explain it to you…”
“Try your best, ‘m sure we’d understan’.”
Anti opened his eyes just a little. Even that was a tremendous effort, so instead of going all the way, he stopped halfway through. He was lying on his side on a bed, underneath the covers. It was…really soft…he could sink into this…but he kept his eyes half-open. There were three people in the room. They all looked vaguely the same, and it took him a while to recognize them. JJ was standing nearest to him, recognizable by his mustache. Though Anti was a bit confused by the bluish glow around his hand, especially when said hand was grabbing his own. Schneep was also nearby, wearing his super suit but with the mask pulled down. He was pacing. Marvin was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room, legs crossed and cane in lap.
And then Anti realized he didn’t know where he was, or why these people were with him. And he was probably asleep in from of them. That jolted him just a bit more awake. No, he couldn’t—why were they here? What did they want? What did they do while he was sleeping? He tried to get up but…god, he was so tired.
“Well…” Schneep contemplated his words. “There is…someone who I’ve fought a couple of times, when I go out on patrol.”
“The hero has a villain?” JJ sounded mildly amused.
“Yes, I suppose you could say that. Anyway, he showed up tonight. He…led me to a place.” Schneep stopped his pacing. “He laughed, and asked me if I was ‘fast enough to save him.’ His exact words. And it is lucky I looked around at that moment, because I saw—I saw Anti, he was standing in the middle of the road. I ran there, and I saw there was a car coming, and I…”
The lights. Anti remembered the lights. Headlights. They’d been coming closer. And the words in…that was a dream, wasn’t it? 'You’re going to die, you know.'
“Well…’t least you were fast enough,” Marvin said, sounding like he was offering up a silver lining.
“Yes, but Anti…he was acting very strange. I think this someone might have done something to him, then tried to kill him.” Schneep looked troubled. “He tried to do the same thing to Jackie.”
“Someone tried to kill Jackie?!” Marvin repeated, anger evident.
“Yes, three weeks ago,” Schneep confirmed. “He tried to pull him out a window.”
“Terrible,” JJ muttered. He adjusted his hold on Anti’s hand, and a little bit of the blue glow flowed down over Anti’s arm. Anti flinched a bit, eyes fluttering. “Why did you come here?”
Schneep shrugged. “You were…close. But also, your magic…it is real. And this someone, he has…he does strange things. I am not sure he is human. I thought it would be a good idea.”
Anti took a deep breath, and coughed. He’d meant to say something, but it hadn’t come out right. Nevertheless, everyone was instantly on alert. And suddenly Schneep was leaning over him. “Anti? Anti? Are you awake? Can you say anything?”
Another deep breath. “…helicopter,” Anti mumbled.
Schneep looked confused. “What?”
“You. You’re helicoptering…” Anti explained. “Close…and he’s touching…” he tried to shake his head.
Schneep leaned back, now slightly embarrassed. “Ah. I see. Unfortunately he has to touch you for his magic to work, he is trying to wake you up.”
Anti groaned. “Don’ like…but fine…”
“Are…are you okay?” Schneep asked hesitantly.
“Mm…tired…” Anti closed his eyes for a bit. “I…h’vn’t slept…at least a day. Bad things…sleepwalk…”
“Oh, this is natural exhaustion, then.” JJ slumped in relief. He turned to Henrik. “Nothing bad’s going to happen if we let him sleep. Provided we keep an eye on him.”
“Alright…but one moment.” Schneep leaned just a bit closer. “Anti…can you tell us what happened?”
“Bad dreams…sleepwalk…bad things…” Anti’s head fell a bit more into the pillow.
“What kind of bad things?” JJ asked.
“…wake up, an’ like…one time, I woke up holding…knife…” He was trying to explain, but everything is a bit disconnected when you’re tired. “Dreams said…w’s gonna die…”
JJ and Schneep exchanged glances. “What happened tonight?” Schneep asked softly.
“Will went asleep an’ then…I did…din’ wanna…” He wanted to now, though. Just a little longer. “Bad dream…dark…someone there…woke up an’…lights coming closer…” His eyes opened a bit wider. “Saw a guy.”
“…who?” Schneep sounded like he already knew the answer.
“Gray…cap…smile…can’ ‘member all…”
Suddenly Marvin was right behind the other two. “Was t’ere blood comin’ from his eyes?” The other two looked at him, startled. He continued anyway. “Black eyes? Kinda dead-lookin’ arms? Blood on his head?”
“Mm-hmm,” Anti mumbled. His eyelids were drooping again.
“Marvin…how did you know that?” Schneep asked.
Marvin looked at him. “Because I’ve seen him before.”
“So have I,” Schneep said. “He’s the one I’ve been mentioning, who tried to kill Jackie, who I have been trying to fight and find out more about.”
Marvin stared at him. “I t’ink we have t’ings to talk about.”
Anti squeezed JJ’s hand, which was still holding his. “C’n I…?”
“Oh!” JJ let go. Immediately, Anti was hit with a wave of exhaustion. “Yes, go to sleep. We can talk more in the morning.”
Anti didn’t even respond, just drifted off. It was a relief to finally do so without worry.
He wasn’t aware of the worries that were to come.