Last night my travel anxiety reached a fever pitch and I told my spouse and mom that I can't go to Maryland over the long weekend.

I feel pretty terrible about it; I know my fear is mostly irrational but I just can't use a rest stop around strangers right now. I can't go into a restaurant or stand in a queue or do the basic shit you need to be able to do during an 8+ hour drive.

It feels like cowardice but I'd rather be a coward than have a panic attack 200 miles from home.