What with the recent revelation that I’m going to be laid off in March because my boss is outsourcing my whole department to a company willing to do our jobs for less than it costs to pay us, and the other recent revelation that I am too disabled to mop a goddamn floor, and the facts that my eating disorder makes handling food an incredibly difficult task for me and that my chronic pain means I can’t do heavy lifting or anything requiring bending over with any frequency, not to mention my extremely sparse résumé…

…I am very afraid that I won’t be able to find another job I can physically do until I get my degree. And once I get my degree, I am very afraid that I won’t be able to find a job that won’t utterly crush my spirit under the boot that is techbro capitalism. I want to write code, but I don’t want to touch Silicon Valley type shit with a ten-foot pole. Fuck.

This post is really two separate groups questions, but I'm putting them in the same post for the sake of having everything in one place. I apologize for how verbose this is. To make reading it easier, I've put the meat of each section in bold, i.e. the actual questions I'm seeking answers for; the rest is background info explaining my specific needs. Putting it under a cut since it's so long. This post is also on my Tumblr.

Edit: I use Windows and have an iPhone, if that helps with specific software recommendations, though both of those might change in the future.

This is not like, a new or hot take, but I was thinking the other day about how I, as a person whose life is largely defined by chronic pain, don't have a lot of characters in media I identify with.
Let's not even have the discussion about mental disability and neurodivergence because holy shit what a completely different can of worms.
Physical disabilities only.
When was the last time you saw a physically disabled character in media whose disability wasn't:
-Needs a wheelchair
-Missing a limb
-Blind
You know, something that it's very OBVIOUS to see they have.
Yep, this is a post about invisible disabilities I have fooled you all.
Y'all. Disability is a broad spectrum. Please represent it fully. There's limited mobility, there's chronic pain, there's motor imprecision, and I KNOW I can't make a comprehensive list.

The only major character I can think of in media who has chronic pain is Mera from Epithet Erased, and... It's a motivation for her to be a villain? Not the kind of character I, as someone who is looking for people like me in media, want to attach to. Don't get me wrong, I love Epithet Erased, Mera is a great character, I just wish I had more OPTIONS. Some characters who were kind while having pain.

I don't know. I don't think it's a new take that disability representation sucks but invisible disability representation REALLY sucks.

I can’t be a part time delivery driver, they don’t do it in my area as I live in the middle of nowhere. I want to cry. I don’t know how I’m going to make money. I can’t sell my art because no one wants it, I can’t be a cashier because of my Dyscalculia, I can’t do physical jobs because of my disabilities.