It's always super hard to give myself the accommodations I'd give anyone else in my situation, since emotionally and mentally it's really hard to feel enough of a genuine connection to internalize anything said. Over the past two years or so I've been getting a little bit better at reconstructing things and at least figuring out they're there, but it's a long path. I need to get more shroom gummies and have a mental health contemplation day soon
#mental health posting
I mean, tbf, usually I end up being unable to overcome the worry and then forget because I put it off all day, I have not an ounce of functionality but my brain tries to bully me into thinking that holding a job means my very obviously some sorta neurodivergent ass is in fact neurotypical
It is very hard to not be hard on one's self
Life's a bitch and I am maidenless
Not enough time tonight to finish another tf ask, but really appreciating all the ones I've been getting! I wonder what this little critter will be
For those who are new n may not know how it works, anyone is free to to send me an ask with drawing suggestions for anything I'm fixated on! (Currently, transformation, Rain World, Fallen London, and The Dark Crystal) For those of you who are here for Fallen London content, you can expect the focus to shift back to that soonish, I go through a fuck around period every year in early summer where I get hit with seasonal depression, art block, and inability to focus properly on the things that bring me joy. The bats will be back, still have some good asks in the box that I wanna draw for the batties, but what little drawjuice I have, my brain is directing elsewhere for now.
