I overslept this morning. I hate oversleeping. I hate myself for oversleeping. I just can't get out of bed in the morning. And the only way to fix that is to get out of bed in the morning. Because even if I go to bed at 9 pm, I will still be in bed until 9 am.
In order to do the thing I want to do I simply have to do it and I can't.
And I hate myself for oversleeping because if I oversleep, I clock in less hours at work. Or I have to stay later at work than I would like. I try to work at least 12 hours each day. No more than 12 or else my company gets fined if it is found out. But I feel the need to work as many hours as possible in order to earn as much money as possible. The more money I earn, the more I can give to my disable friends in need. There are many times that if I don't give to my disable friends in need, they suffer. Because me earning money to give to my friends seems much more of a sure thing then hoping strangers online have extra money to give. Everyone is poor, after all. I hate Capitalism.