Game randomizers like Ocarina of Time have a setting to randomize Links Outfit colour. They should do one for skin tone and hair colour as well I think it'd be cool to play as a multicultural link depending on the random seed.

(I don't care how difficult it is for that to work it needs to happen now)

I honestly hate being harassed by the job provider agency about shifts, and if I'm applying for more jobs. 3 jobs is fucking ridiculous as is. Full time work isn't coming anytime soon for me. I'm really tired, I can barely afford necessities and they act like I just need to "get a job." Well I've applied for many and either my mental health is wack or I'm just undesirable as a candidate. I have only gotten casual work that don't roster me on frequently. It's rough out here. I don't even buy things for myself anymore.

I miss being creative and doing things but even that is hard on my own. I hate that I can't think straight, I can't handle my own thoughts and I burn out quickly. I go to therapy and just sound like I'm not fit to work but i do anyway even if I'm on the edge of a panic attack. I work as much as i can just for the consistent pay I get from centrelink to go away making it even harder to live. Making working have more consequences then good outcomes. It's fucked to think that I can't live off it. It's fucked that I don't have the energy to cook to experience life. It's fucked that I can't handle myself most days. It's fucked I'm being pestered for not trying hard enough even though I'm giving it as much as I can without breaking down.

And even then I get asked to look for more work. How bout my fucking employers roster me on more than once every fucking few months.

I'm trying to not stress it while I'm sick. But it's hard. I wish I didn't have to ask for help and assistance and I'm just dealing with the consequences of being a low income citizen. I hate it. 😒 so much of my self worth was molded by my father to believe that working is everything and honestly I suck at working. I cry a lot a panic I stress I burn out. I still try to stick through it when I'm rostered on but I need a lot of unwind time.

I'm not good with management types of people I get scared, I feel like a kid again being attacked and shunned by my parents. I wish therapy picks up again soon when I can get more in person sessions that would be great.

That's my little feelings posts thanks for reading it if you got this far 💖

God damn I want a burger 🍔 😩 😫 😭 😤