i know it's way too early to be worrying about a university course i'm not noing to be doing for another 4 years, but i e-mailed the university to check about funding since i'll already have an undergrad by then, and it's undergrad etry level although you get a masters at the end. there's a chance i may have to fund it myself, but i'm hoping i'd get a loan for at least like a year of it since you do graduate wth a masters?? idk. i think i might have enough money by then to fund a year of it myself if i start to save more now, bc i haven't used all the money i'd previously been given by student finance for my current degree yet. idk i really don't need to be worrying about all this now, and i might be able to get financial help from a family mmber or a scholarship or something i haven't even considered yet so idk i hope it'll all be ok. i know i only found out about this course a few days ago but it sounds perfect. this is how i felt when i first discovered my current university course.

"Gostyngiad 'siomedig' yn nifer y siaradwyr Cymraeg"

'Disappointing' decrease in the number of Welsh speakers

transphobes will never happy with what you as a trans person do, to the point where they tie themselves in knots with contradictions.

i spent a lot of my life being told "you're an ugly masculine girl, you're not feminine enough, no one sees you as a real girl"

and then i said "ok well i'm a boy" and people said "you're not masculine enough, you're too feminine to be a boy, no one will ever see you as a real man when you grow up"

and then i was like "well i guess i'm non-binary then" and people said "you don't look androgynous enough. non-binary genders aren't real, just pick female or male. no adult is non-binary, you'll pick male or female soon enough. you are actually a woman/man, you're just gender non-conforming or expressive about it."

and then i decided that i am actually gender non-conforming and that i've had enough of gender, and i get told i can't do that and i get labelled as a man/woman/non-binary against my will. but if i went back to calling myself a woman/man/non-binary then i would just be told i'm not feminine/masculine/androgynous/whatever enough again.

also i just found 2 white hairs on my head today so yeah i'm really collecting all the natural hair colours lmao