🎨 one repeating thing we've been thinking about this past week is how we almost came out as trans several years before we formally realized it ourselves

so, basically what happened was that back when we were younger, we joined in the school talent show a couple times. as i'm writing this i'm realizing this might've also been part of what eventually led to me being an individual, but that's a different realization and not relevant rn. as we moved into our teens, there were a couple times we thought about doing so again. one time in particular, we even had a song thought out. in retrospect we're kinda happy we never did that one (we did not quite catch all the heavy-handed christian euphemisms in it at the time), there was something we planned to add to that performance.

you see, the song had a lyric that went "i'm just the boy inside the man". that repeated twice. and sweet young baby egg us, without having fully realized she was full of gender, wanted to go on stage and belt out "i'm just the girl inside the man" to most of her social environment. which, last i checked, is a totally cis thing to do.

i wonder who we'd be if we had done that. we've done the year math and that would've been either a 2015 or 2016 event, and with the norwegian laws requiring sterilization for legal gender recognition only being lifted in 2016, it would've been a rough time to come out. we still likely would not get access to any sort of treatment until after our worst dysphoria point developed. there is a chance those last couple years before uni would be extra rough on us. i hope she's doing well in whatever timeline she's in.