Tfw you're laying in bed wondering what exists in this world that could fill the hollowness you feel in your chest because everything you've tried has been a drop in the bucket so you would take anything even pain or anger just to feel something but instead you just have this cold emptiness and you stare at your ceiling trying to remember the times that weren't like this because right now it feels so far away like a distant fuzzy memory and the void feels so loud and clear