reth

the display name is my initials

experimenting and all that.
chief executive dysfunction officer. few of my posts are high-effort, but at least they're funny.
current avatar is an old art by fireflufferz because i'm bored with having michiru pfps.
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need to trick my brain to stop caring about numbers.

like, why am i sad that a share of my post that i spent 30 seconds from coming up with to posting got 36 shares (and even more likes), while my smartwatch opinions post, that i’ve actually put effort in, got 1 like.

i’m not supposed to be mad, not at all, but what the fuck is this number envy. cohost is literally the only social platform where i’m getting more than 1 engagement a week, and i’m somehow being sad that other people get more than me. why. i’m not supposed to be doing that.


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turn off the categories. trust me. the knowledge only hurts you. i turn off everything except replies, comments, and follows (because i like to check the profile of everyone that follows me). i’ll only check likes and shares occasionally if i see something in there or on my feed related to my posting that confuses me, and i’m hoping the extra info helps. outside of that (and maybe i even shouldn’t do that), there’s literally no reason to ever get that information. it’s toxic and poisons the brain. just post what makes you happy and damn the numbers

honestly yeah, you’re right. i probably shouldn’t make complainposts as the first thing in the morning. and i’m gonna try turning off likes for now, still gonna keep shares on so i can make correlations between post spread and following. just can’t turn that part of the brain off without coming back to it.