this sounds so cheesy but i actually felt myself have a moment of wisdom and was like "oh shit i'm smarter in an aged way now"
ME: "what if i could go back to like. 4 years old, but with all my knowledge now, to live a perfect life"
ALSO ME: "okay but you also realize that all the knowledge came as both direct and indirect results of those experiences 'going wrong' right"
ME: "... oh shit"
and then this weird feeling of like. peace like yeah i know shit!! i know a lot of shit!! and will learn more as i continue progressing through life
it's the most like. adult adult i've felt in ages