road-trip-girl

hit with the gay baseball bat

hi. i'm hanging out. i like fire emblem and comics and stories and women. i don't post very often.

i am over 18


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cathoderaydude
@cathoderaydude

below lies a personal philosophical diatribe built around being a Gamer. I have no idea why you'd read it unless you just want to know what it's like being me.


cathoderaydude
@cathoderaydude

the endgame of this process of course is how much time i spend exploring 8-bit computer games with horrifically outmoded mechanics, like Xanthius (ZX Spectrum, 1987.) as bennett foddy puts it, those are my grapefruit, my coffee, my licorice; the bitter and awkward treats i have taught myself to appreciate for their weird, off-putting qualities rather than anything conventionally and clearly pleasurable about the experience.


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painstakingly describes childhood issues in detail, traumas and how people affected them

Also: "I can't remember anything from more than 3 years ago"

Why is this relatable to me lol

As a fellow rarely-beats-games type, I'm fascinated by your description of all this. I don't think I ever had someone teach me how to beat games like that. I think I just eventually figured it out myself. Maybe I learned by watching friends. I also have a specific kind of dissociation which occasionally makes it impossible for me to rage, and very difficult to panic, and it does help sometimes. (Not in relationships though lmao)

Man, Wonder Boy 3 is one of those games that got my memory going - that was a game I had on the Game Gear back in the day and I could never finish, mainly because I never wrote down the codes to continue and I'd end up dying to something and couldn't figure out what I was supposed to do in a few sections, until I got an Action Replay and just cheated my way through...

... and then the remake came out and I blew through the whole thing in a single playthrough. I think I died exactly once to the pirate dragon and it was entirely my fault for being too aggressive and eating a bunch of hooks to the face as a result, but other than that the game I'd found to be a white whale as a kid was... honestly pretty chill and easy by the standards of the games I'd got used to playing since.

thinks about how I've never finished New Vegas, just modded it until it broke
Thinks about the flaring anger I get when dying in competitive shooters that eventually made me drop them
Thinks about how I just bought Teardown, played the first two levels, and immediately went to dicking around in all -unlocks sandbox

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