below lies a personal philosophical diatribe built around being a Gamer. I have no idea why you'd read it unless you just want to know what it's like being me.
the endgame of this process of course is how much time i spend exploring 8-bit computer games with horrifically outmoded mechanics, like Xanthius (ZX Spectrum, 1987.) as bennett foddy puts it, those are my grapefruit, my coffee, my licorice; the bitter and awkward treats i have taught myself to appreciate for their weird, off-putting qualities rather than anything conventionally and clearly pleasurable about the experience.
