isolation is stagnation is death and my parents have become fearful and old while i am fearful and sick, and i feel utterly defeated by the world into being too feral to have connections.
how do i find the faggots irl if i am too afraid of people to use discord, due to repeated cycles of social neglect of various kinds and my own wish to just sleep samsara off for a while.
lightning striking several times makes me want to live underground
