falling down and then caught and falling down and being lifted
moving sucks but it brings me the neuroskeletal nature of the Autism Creaturehood aka the body was always the whole body and they broke us by making us stop moving. the fidget as self soothing because im stimming on where fuckin humors pool to keep my meat gundam from congealing and it ate what i learned from physical therapy. ive been working on my body this whole time, resting while stretching my feet to restore circulation so that i dont absolutely beef it at the airport unassisted in a couple weeks lmao