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Webster
@Webster

a destructive habit i've been training myself to abandon is seeking anger with deliberation. in it's less harmful forms this looks like checking AITA all the time or looking for awful Instagram poetry to roll your eyes at. more insidious is seeing an expression of solidarity go viral on twitter and reflexively scoping the replies for naysayers. tossing aside the empowering essence of a message in favor of the hopelessness suggested by the existence of its opposition. for a lot of my life i would do this so reliably that seeing expressions of solidarity on social media would make me sick to my stomach in advance. i didn't even need to see the replies anymore. i merely needed to imagine them.

if i was on Team Suffering i would be giddy hearing that solidarity itself had been robbed of its power on social media. this habit is poisonous. it has to stop.


astral
@astral
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in reply to @Webster's post:

oh shit same, to the point where I've tried to cut myself off from the Internet altogether, but that means cutting off a large portion of my social life and hobbies (...and I'm just plain addicted) so it never sticks

I tell myself that I'm looking for the lolz or to stay up on the latest juicy drama or to educate myself on the opposition but it's absolutely a compulsion and it sucks so bad

I'm still pretty bad at not looking at the comments. But I do have a rule in my blocker app called "psychic damage" that blocks websites like r/amitheasshole, and it's definitely made my life better.