How were you as a child and how do you interact with people now? Are you still playing a certain role due to survival or have you moved onto embrace what you wanted then?
Basically what part of you is needing to be acknowledged and cherished with. There are some who allowed others to walk over them and continue to do this instead of acting for themselves. Then there are those who had to grow up much faster and as a result, they are learning to be silly and childlike again. There are those who balanced others before themselves and have to learn their own inner balance with their needs. In other words, how do you perceive yourself when you are with other people.
When you chase after someone’s affections without taking anything in return, what does that say about yourself. That you want to in turn want to receive this tender love of being loved and to not have to give yourself so much as well. Or if there is a sassiness type of interaction, the feeling of being bolder or being able to say what you want is evident. However running in comparison is that inner conflict or resolution from thinking within. It’s turning away from things which are unknown and understanding why. Or simply getting away from what makes you scared. Then the question is asked why something makes you instinctive leave. What parts of yourself are you ignoring because you don’t want to see them. In other words, what traumas or bad habits have you taken upon yourself from these external sources and used them as coping mechanisms. The willingness to overcome these allows for a revitalized version of yourself. Things start to get a little clearer and that fog of confusion lifts ever so gently once you realize.
This can be with anybody. Friends, family, potential romances, squishes, etc. Once one starts to see how they play certain roles around other folks, it’s a good question to ask. Is the way that I am reacting to certain people evidently myself or a part of myself that needs to change? Is it that I am reflecting someone else’s feelings about themselves of a lesson I’ve already overcome or have yet to conquer?
This post was originally made Nov 2020


