Contemplation and wondering on interactions. Where there is a thought of how to truly be oneself when no longer in more extreme reactions. From daily motions and people surrounding, when it is no longer conversations that are filled with stress and traumatic experiences encompassing, how do you adjust to properly react?
This is especially the case where one is reforming habits to become healthier ones. Not as a sole means to escape the situation surrounding. When you talk to friends, how do you react to their quips? To their genuine concern for actual you instead of how you adjust to other people’s pains? To the general motion of someone showing you kindness and not what you are putting certain expectations of how relationships worked in the past?
It’s learning to see yourself as an individual worth expressing vulnerable moments. To realize that words that you choose are not worthless or excuses. It is to understand that you have also have faults and it’s something you can share with those you trust. Even if it means learning another language to re-express what you have wanted to convey before, it’s worth the effort. Because it is not solely about a very broad aspect of those conversations in the moment. It’s reflecting on what happened before and finding a way for you to understand how it applies to yourself or even the other individual. If this means to write out those thoughts, to cry out those emotions, or even to talk again with the other person. Then reflect in multiple ways until you understand. Realize that you are choosing to do better and realize that sometimes people will not take that time to reflect on themselves. Do it for yourself and move on (metaphorically or literally).
Communicate in any form which allows you to realize and adapt what is correct for your beliefs, patterns, or break what doesn’t work for you. It doesn’t matter if you are more silent, if you are more vocal, if you are whatever more of. Because you’ll eventually learn those communicative languages that work best for you in any situation. Extract that focus on what works for you and be more open to adjusting yourself to being your more authentic version of you. You are not a shell of an individual if you are not as able to do what someone else can. You will find that adjustable medium eventually over time and be comfortable with yourself, within the presence of others around you.
This post was originally made Jan 2021


