I pick things up
I am a collector
And things, well things
They tend to accumulate
I have this net
It drags behind me
It picks up hobbies
For me to feed upon



But I kind of do? It’s weird.

When I was a kid I had nightmares a lot. Like one time I was shrunk down and I lived in the swirling grain of a wooden workbench. The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles were there and they were evil and they chased me out of my wooden home. We were at the top of this stone turret and they chased me down the winding staircase. That was the whole nightmare as I remember it and it caused me much anxiety during and after the dream.

But eventually, and I don’t remember when, I just stopped having nightmares altogether. Over the years I would occasionally have dreams that could be construed as nightmares but they did not cause me any mental harm during or after so I didn’t consider them nightmares. I’ve become disconnected from most negative emotions during my dreams. And I can still experience positive emotions.

I don’t really get why this happened.

Anyway last night I had a dream that I ordered Chinese food on a Saturday like I usually do and the General Tsos was BAD. It had deflated peas over it, and there was barely any sauce. Additionally I had 11 guests visiting my home and I had to entertain them. This is basically the worst case scenario for my Saturday night but I did not feel anxious or frustrated, I just ate my terrible General Tsos and entertained my guests.

Admittedly this does not rise to the same level of being chased by the entire TMNT team in a medieval castle but I would have expected some level of discomfort.

Overall I have been happy to no longer have nightmares because they used to be really awful, but I wish I knew why or how it happened. It makes me think about how much we know about the human body, and some about our brain, but we really don’t know that much. Will we ever know why something like this happens? Can we? Is the evidence still there or has it been covered up by years of change?


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