ANYWAY. SHOVING THE CAMERAS OUT OF MY FACE i think marigold would enjoy planning weddings bc of the flowers
they'dbe very excited to make flower arrangements using flower symbolism itsbasically the only time theyget to ramble about flowers to people otherthan VITTA
insofuckign miserble imsomiserabel . i think VITTA imagined getting married to chethi sometimes. residual feelings nd all. and i think if they knew about marigold's interest they'd always imagine them helping to plan it. always imagine them being there. and i think if the idea of getting actually legitimately married to citare crossed their mind marigold would be there, too. i think they'd ask marigold what theh should wear. but also ithink they'd want tk wear sunflowers because citare is a sunbeam and they'll always stubbornly find her. citare is warm and they will always turn to face that warmth. whatever. walks directly into a wall and passes out.
I FEEL SICK. marigold definitelywouldve told VITTA about this interest . i mean, they are the only person who listens to them genuinely... theyprobably wrote about it in a letter like . i thought a lot about something recently and i think if i wasn't doing this job i'd want to help plan weddings. i want to be part of the reason people have an unforgettable day . iwant to die. MARIGOLD WANTS TO BETHERE FOR VITTA ALWAYS . they'dbe more than happy to pick something for them to wear... of course sunflowers. hrghghhg .
GRAAAAAAAAAAHHHH IMSOFUCKED IM SO FUCKEDDDDDD THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU? WHY THIS. WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO DO THIS.WHY ARE YOU STILL DOING THIS Questions they never asked. look at you working with something so volatile, so dangerous. i think it makes you happy but youd be happy doing that, too, wouldn't you? why this. why put your life on the line. i know why. but i wish it were different. i wishthings were different. i wish you were off planning weddings and making people happy even if it meant we'd never have met each other. theyd tellthem that they could do a career pivot but that's about the closest they get to suggesting marigold should quit. sniffle. RUNSINTK ANOTHER WALLLLLL YOUR ASS SHOULD'VE BEEN PLANNING WEDDINGS INSTEAD IF FUCKING W THAT DAMN POLLENπ₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯π₯
i startedcrying . imagining if marigold had been a wedding planner instead of doing this and they never getting to meet VITTA properly . i think they would've just quit. i think they wouldn't be as happy as they are working with the pollen bc. its not just helping people be safe that makes them want to stay, its VITTA . bc they care about what they have to say . the wedding would always be about flowers and that's great but marigold is more than just a gardener and there's so much more they can talk about. so much that only One person would've listened to . they don't want to just be another face in a sea of people. they want to do something that means something. they want to actually be seen for once intheir life. i hatethis . marigold wouldve caught on immediately that VITTA wassuggesting they quit but. i dont think theyd pretend not to notice?? i think they would acknowledge it and be like . itd be a waste to stop now, wouldnt it? and i like spending time with you so . i dont want to leave . IMSORRYYY
