I've been trying hard to just... make things work, but things aren't really working out. I'm worried about what's happening not only personally but in the world. I'm just trying to keep my mind in the game of keeping my cat, myself, and my household alive and trying to do more than survive.
I still haven't found work yet. Most of the places I've had callbacks from ended up not being who they claimed to be. I'm walking around to local places, so may have a few leads in that way. I have run out of the funds I was gifted, but I want to thank you all again for helping me with rent and cat food! Gimlet really appreciates being able to have wet food and litter! I'm glad I can feel somewhat like I was able to carve out time, I just wish I had success during my job search so far. Lots of call backs or rejections. Lots of sleepless nights. I have a few spots I'm still waiting to hear back from, but it's hard to remain hopeful after a few months of nothing and a few years of mostly the same.
In the meantime though, I'm still income-less but trying to not fall to despair. I'm working on side projects for some way of getting side income, but that also takes time to create and it's hard to do when you're also looking for work and cleaning house. I do intend on continuing streams, continuing my writing, continuing the job hunt. I've been learning how to create lots of recipes using beans and rice. Also, apparently, I've got student loans from the government starting back up too. That's thrown another wrench into my world I didn't need and can't afford.
At the moment, it looks like I'm not going to be able to meet any of my obligations this month, even if I were to find something soon. I don't really know what else to do though at this point. I need approximately 500 for rent and 250 for basics and necessities for the month. I am not paying some of my debts and bills, which is stacking up too. Even if I find something, I am in a really deep crevice, lost all my savings and retirement, and I'm almost 40 with a career that I don't want to follow any more. It's an actual mid life crisis given the life expectancy of this nation, and I'm approximately half the age of my father when he passed. The semblance sometimes sits in my heart like a drop of viscous sap, sucking up against my insides. This just keeps happening over and over again, is what I can't help but think.
I am going to keep asking for help, to stay alive and here with my found family. To help keep us together as we all work towards something better for ourselves and still able to meet the financial demands of this day and age. I also don't mind job type announcements sent my way, but I will say that I go through quite a few applications daily.
For those seeking someone, here's a short summary of my qualifications:
Over 14 years of combined professional experience in both private and public agencies.
Excellence in content production and management, customer service and support, analysis, and writing/editing.
Noted for creativity, resourcefulness, flexibility, high emotional capacity and intelligence, being a team player, and working well independently with minimal supervision.
High breadth of technical and soft skills with flexibility to rapidly learn new technology, skills, and communication styles and techniques.
Passionate for helping people and developing new ways to accomplish difficult tasks.
If you want to donate/gift to aid me and my family as well as Gimlet the Grey, here are a few options:
https://account.venmo.com/u/Billy-Butler-25
and
https://paypal.me/billybobbutler
Want to follow my stream? We're going to be talking about nonsense from time to time, playing games, and enjoying each other's company in this strange time:
https:// www.twitch.tv/shay_the_skunk
My schedule is erratic as I look for work and continue to tackle what appears to be the aftereffects of being sick with Covid. I get fatigued so easily now that it's become tough to find anything really. I also may explore doing some 'supernatural' detective work for people, as that may be some way for me to continue learning about the world and others and pursue something people want to give money for. The ability to note what is tangible versus what is not could be valuable to the people seeking answers in a world of misinformation.
This is an attempt to stay able to keep pursuing gainful employment here and ensure my cat doesn't learn the madness that is capitalism. He's a wonderful guy and I live with wonderful people in an incredible place, and I don't want to imagine having to give him and this space and my love up. I currently need approximately 750 dollars to keep things moving in a way that is somewhat okay. I need significantly more for how much debt I have now though, especially if I add in the student loans restarting. Woof, what a burden.
Everything helps, sharing is caring, and I am looking for work, so... 👀… if you want some creative writing, social media coordination/management consulting, data analysis and consultation, or want a spirit detective who will look into your possibly supernatural case and see if it requires more than a usual solution... hit me up maybe?
If you managed to read all the way down here, you're rad and Gimlet appreciates you. Thanks for spending your time on witnessing my plight. I hope things are going well for you and yours.