Shay The Skunk

I have one month to find employment of some kind other wise we'll all have to move out. This fucking sucks y'all, I really hate every single part of this because I also don't have money to move, no where to move, and no one to move in with.

I'm doing my best, but it isn't enough. I'm asking for help and there isn't enough. I'm hopeful, but not optimistic. I honestly don't know what will happen in this coming 30 days, but I hope it's a fucking miracle.

If you know of a job, please let me know. I'm looking for any remote work and have significant experience in customer/audience facing roles. I'll at least give it an application and good try no matter what. I just don't want to have to leave my found family. None of want that but it's the option we'll have to take more shortly than I want.

If you want to help in the meantime with a donation, I'll include those below:

Thank you for those of you who have helped already or have reached out to me directly or in person. I really do need all the support I can get right now. Everything has really become heavy and difficult for me. The continued rejections despite my hours of effort are really wearing me down, so I appreciate you looking out for me, praying for me, doing a ritual with me in mind, or just sending a kind word.

Thanks again for reading. I know it's tough right now and there are too many to help. I thank you for taking the time to read at all or to share. <3 It means more than I can say.

I don't have much time left here in the state at this rate. No income, no offers, this is the final month I can keep this going with my roommate's help. Next month... we have to leave the state probably. If anyone can help, anyone with my rent and bills that are coming up... I don't know what I'd do, but I'll figure something out. I'm trying my best to not freak out and continue trying to get work, and I've received nothing but final interviews and no offers.

I'm at the end of my rope, so any help is good. I know things are hard everywhere right now too, so sharing is caring. I will literally have no home soon, so I don't know what I'm going to do for my cat. I don't have money to move and can't pack/store anything.

Frankly, it's really beginning to worry me beyond mere worry. I can't sleep well and food has no flavor, everything is really gray to me right now. I wish I had more positive news from my front, esp. here, but I have to ask, I have to try to survive using every means I have available.

Thanks for reading, and thinking of me at the very least. I need any help possible, so even that might help me out.

I have one month to find employment of some kind other wise we'll all have to move out. This fucking sucks y'all, I really hate every single part of this because I also don't have money to move, no where to move, and no one to move in with.

I'm doing my best, but it isn't enough. I'm asking for help and there isn't enough. I'm hopeful, but not optimistic. I honestly don't know what will happen in this coming 30 days, but I hope it's a fucking miracle.

If you know of a job, please let me know. I'm looking for any remote work and have significant experience in customer/audience facing roles. I'll at least give it an application and good try no matter what. I just don't want to have to leave my found family. None of want that but it's the option we'll have to take more shortly than I want.

If you want to help in the meantime with a donation, I'll include those below:

Thank you for those of you who have helped already or have reached out to me directly or in person. I really do need all the support I can get right now. Everything has really become heavy and difficult for me. The continued rejections despite my hours of effort are really wearing me down, so I appreciate you looking out for me, praying for me, doing a ritual with me in mind, or just sending a kind word.

Thanks again for reading. I know it's tough right now and there are too many to help. I thank you for taking the time to read at all or to share. <3 It means more than I can say.

I really don't like doing this. In fact, these past few months have taught me that my greatest sin isn't anything other than pride. I've always been too damn proud to ask for help, and I definitely needed to ask for more than I have been. I need to ask again now beyond the local groups and places I have been. Frankly, I should've weeks ago and should be asking in streams too. I should make a banner for my stream too, since it's given me more income than... well... surveys.

I wish I had some other way to get the finances I need to continue trying to stick around here for me and my cat right now, but surveys don't populate quickly enough or pay enough as well as take me away from looking for actual employment. Gig work has dried up or people undercut me so much that it's not actually worth the time (I'd make more doing surveys, which already isn't enough). That said, I'm in the middle of final interviews at a few spots, so hopefully? this will be the last time I need to ask for financial assistance in this dark time we're all experiencing.

https://paypal.me/billybobbutler
https://venmo.com/u/Billy-Butler-25

Anything donated will assist with the house more than my personal debts, which are astounding, but hopefully I'll get a job where I can help pay those back over time. In the meantime, however, I am asking for aid to stick around here, have food for me and my cat, as well as possibly be able to pay my rent/utilities this upcoming month.

I do want to touch on why I'm really upset recently though and why I had to look at myself and say, "Yes, you do need help, you have to ask, even if no one does. You have to try all avenues." My current tally for employment offers is 0 in these past few months. I've been in final interviews over 12 times in the past month though. Unfortunately, none of them so far have amounted to anything, in fact, four of them ghosted me? I even followed up and they won't return my calls or emails, so... I don't know? It's really upsetting to have spent about 40 hours every week for months seeking work to get not a damn thing than 'oh, we love your experience, we'll get back to you in two weeks' and then they don't.

Any road, thank you for reading, I know there is a lot going on and a lot of people who need help. So, if you can only share, please do. If you can help, know that it will mean more than words for me and mine as we all struggle under this roof.

Although my cat may not be as worried, I haven't been able to come up with my portion for October, and my roommates still can't cover it at the moment, not to mention the need to cover next month's which is fast approaching.

So, I'm asking again for help from folks who may not know me other than I need help in this very dark time for my found family and me. I've been able to somewhat push back bills and other needs, but I still need $500 for this month's rent, and likely need that again for next months as I still haven't nailed down a job or consistent income.

Venmo: https://venmo.com/u/Billy-Butler-25

PayPal: https://paypal.me/billybobbutler

I don't currently have other methods, but am open to creating one since the need is great. I'm trying to remain positive, and do have a lot of job applications out there, however it always takes time before that first paycheck comes in. And that's counting chickens, if you know what I mean? I've applied for grocery chains and local places too, but haven't heard back. So, anything you can do will help. Share, gift, sending positive vibes and more.

I'm of the belief that I can make it through this with my chosen family and I want to stay here with them if I am able. Your help could be the difference for my cat and me. I have been very blessed to have people in my life that have been able to come to my aid directly or indirectly, and that those of you on the internet have shown me how we are all connected even more thoroughly than I first imagined.

In the meantime, I continue to write, read, play games, and stream. I'm working with people on their board games and card games they're busy making. I'm watching my sister and half sister get on with their lives in this wild time despite the trouble they've seen. My half brother is looking to see if there's something at his company for me. I have to believe that things will get better. My partner is trying to move into what he wants to do for his existence and career and fulfillment, and I want to be able to help by being stable enough to do so. My roommate is changing his career too and in a course for vocational skills. What will happen to me? My ambitions are more narrow and focused, but I think I know what direction I need to go. I'll write more about that another time though as it's still being formulated and planned. Something that'll take decades of slow chipping at the stone, most likely.

Thank you for reading this far and for any assistance you may be able to provide in this time of need. I promise you I'm going to be paying it forward, somehow, someway. That much I do know of my future.