sometimes i regret the things i say in the heat of the moment about being an educator. what i really hate is being /forced/ to be one, expected to be one, and/or made to educate people who dont want to learn anything (/demand me to explain but ignore my explanations.)
i really wouldnt mind educating and talking abt my identity once im more comfortably along in my transition and physically in a safer location.
and in general when im not too busy just staying alive
but i like educating. i hate when people make me dislike educating.