So last night I had a couple dreams. I'm used to the dreams I remember being just bizarre, but these were fairly tame? Also marks the first return of the Gender Dreams since coming out to my wife.
1| My mother-in-law brought me to a megachurch, but I was only wearing those tiny Nike shorts and a hoodie, so I went to the bathroom to change. There were two lines, and both of them were super long. I picked one and waited, but once I got close to the end I realized I was in a line for a concession stand, so I just gave up and went to go to the service.
Once I was back in the main chamber, I couldn't find anyone. The service was starting, so I just quietly sneaked up to a balcony seat. Apparently I ended up sitting by some relative or family friend who doesn't exist IRL, but they gave me a plate of food, so I just sat and ate while listening to whatever bullshit sermon was going on. Then that sermon ended, and they played a song to transition into the next, but the song was the Rule of Rose theme for some reason. Then they started singing a song, and everyone around me got out a pair of spoons and started clinking along. That's all I remember.
2| Where I was kinda just phased back and forth between my childhood home and some non-descript outside location (maybe a school sports game?). BUT the gist of this dream was that I was looking in a mirror and saw myself with my hair grown out to shoulder-length with short bangs, and I hated how I looked. I tried to dress myself in a way that I was hiding my hair.
Fast forward to the outside space, and my parents saw my hair and started mocking me saying "Your hair looks so pretty, just like a girl." And I just sat there hiding my head in my arms feeling so embarrassed and hurt that they were making fun of me, but also a little joyful that they were saying I looked like a girl even though it was mean-spirited.