tabletop rpg obsessed, particularly lancer, icon, cain, the treacherous turn, eclipse phase, and pathfinder 2e. also a fan of the elder scrolls and star wars, an avid gamer and reader of webcomics, and when my brain cooperates, a hobbyist writer.
the urge to share my creations versus the horrifying ordeal of being perceived. fight of the millennium. anyway posts about my ocs are tagged with "mal's ocs" (minus the quotes). posts about or containing my writing are tagged with "mal's writing" (again, sans quotes). posts about my sci-fi setting specifically are tagged "the eating of names". i'd pin the latter two if they were actually among my top 15 most used tags lol. fair warning, my writing tends to be quite dark and deal with some heavy themes.
avatar is a much more humanoid depiction of my OC Arwen Tachht than is strictly accurate, made in this Picrew. (I have humanoidsonas for my non-humanoid OCs because I cannot draw them myself and must rely on dollmakers and such, hooray chronic pain)
Announcing FISH FEAR ME, a new action roguelike from the creator of SNAKE FARM! Catch fish, fight them, sell their bones, and catch more fish as you embark upon the quest to become the greatest battle-fisherman of all time!
Wishlist now:
"nobody tests on high latency / slow connections" is how i discovered today that the right click menus require a round trip in discord, and that if you are on a particularly slow or not great one (e.g. satellite internet) you will straight up get a loading spinner instead of a right click menu
the future is here and it is shit
This is something I've posted about before then took down because I didn't like the phrasing, lemme see if I can get it right this time.
It's one thing to ask someone to look at something you drew, or listen to a song you made, or even read a short story you read. But when your primary art is writing things that are 100,000 words long, that's a big ask, which is why I don't do it. I don't expect anyone to engage with my art because it's a massive commitment.
But.
I struggle sometimes really hard with that too. I'll see friends in servers or on here sharing their art and I always try and engage, but I can't turn around and go "oh, if you're interested, here's almost a half million words that can be summed up as 'angry lesbian building fights dragons with dinosaurs.' If you're not a fan of that, I can give you a quarter million words of 'watch me write an unintentional trans metaphor as a girl turns into a dragon while fighting aliens as my egg cracks in the background'." Etc. Etc.
When I started writing novels, a friend of mine told me I'd chosen the loneliest art, and I get that now. Because other big ask art - play my game, watch my film - those are things you can show a bit of it. A clip, a screenshot, a good moment. Those are often collaborative works, too, so you can talk about it with people as you work on it.
I write between 3,000 and 5,000 words a day. Only my editor or co-author is interested in reading them before they become a book. And after they become a book I have readers who read them, and I have friends who are happy for me, but I just don't get to talk about the art I made with people who enjoyed it.
There's no good fix for this. Just a minor gripe I guess, and I'm hoping I'll feel better having written and shared these things.
