man, though. selfship stuff just feels like an extension of something I've been doing since really very very early childhood where I'd imagine characters from cartoons, stories, or video games were my friends.
Late elementary school and middle school was about the point I'd gotten seriously into art and it coincided with those fantasies getting more romantic. What an interesting journey the human mind is!
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I can't really describe why but it feels really important to me that I be earnest about this aspect of myself. Maybe I'm fascinated by this roundabout expression of self love? That I can augment the love I receive from other people alongside characters that are meaningful to me through imagination? That I'm engaging with something that connects my current self to one of my earliest selves?
I don't have the answer! And I'm so fascinated that my mind produces this, and that I'm aware that my mind is producing this. I'm humbled that one day that awareness and experience of the self must end. I think we just have to love while we're here.