not gonna lie it kinda puts twists in my gut to bring up covid with people and to be really vulnerable about how it feels to be disabled/to have been close to higher-risk people throughout this whole pandemic. I don't know how to talk about this stuff - I worry about being too raw and off-putting but it wouldn't be honest if I tried to soften the grief and soften the rage. I don't know how people will respond but thankfully it seems that some of the people I talk to regularly are interested in organizing covid-safe things together.