skysometric

Skysometric

@skysometric

trans christian, any pronouns. artist at heart, programmer by trade. what's a cohost? can you eat it?

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skysometric
@skysometric

no site has ever hit my imposter syndrome quite like cohost

when i finally wrote my intro post the other day what i didn't realize is that i've actually been here a year already. but it doesn't feel that way at all because i just... keep bouncing off the site

every post i see going around feels like it's written in another language. a lot of niche stuff in my orbit that i would normally be interested in, occasionally stuff that i already know a lot about... but my eyes just glaze over reading it and i don't know why. impossible to parse the words. impossible for me to get into it, like i can on tumblr or any other social media site.

meanwhile i go to share my own thoughts & my own work, stuff that i know people want to see (on other platforms), and i'm lucky to get a single like. this isn't about metrics, i promise – this is more about... acknowledgement? like can anyone even see me here in the corner? does anyone on this site actually want to see what i'm saying?

so it feels like everybody is talking around me and i can't relate to what they're saying at all and they don't seem to care about what i'm saying at all. it's very isolating.

i would consider just abandoning it, but... several of my mutuals post here exclusively now. besides, i really do want to give cohost a fair shot – even if i feel a LOT like charlie brown with the football right about now.

so i've cleaned up my following list to hopefully lessen the imposter syndrome, and i'm putting effort into establishing myself and chatting here. one last shot, and if it doesn't work out, i'll begrudgingly hit the bricks.

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fae-iii
@fae-iii

Lol, I haven't even written an intro yet, idk what to say about myself that wouldn't fit into my profile.

I agree, something does feel just a little bit off with this site and a lot of what you've said resonates with me. Idk what it exactly is. I mean, I was already mostly self-isolated on the other platforms and have only so recently been trying to lessen my avoidant personality, so I can't perfectly speak to that, but something does feel off with being seen and seeing others here. I'm glad it's not just me thinking that.

Tumblr felt a little obscure to me and I bounced off of it many times in the past half-decade, but I recently followed an absolute ton of accounts that were recommended to me and it feels a little better now and I'm trying to make the little pixel art posts I make analogous with the one's I make here and they get noticed about the same there as here. So I at least can interact there on a surface level if this site's potential doesn't pan out. Idk where else I could try.

I'm holding out for a few more features and more people coming here. Things feel a little bit inaccessible to me on the discovery level here right now, but I think it'll get better eventually.

I have been happy at least not being on Twitter anymore, there was just a lot of unavoidable stuff there that would trigger a lot of stress. I mean, depressed recently, but my moods been better in general lately.

also: I like dusty maroon and almond ok, genuinely, but I want to be able make it something easier on the eyes occasionally.

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skysometric
@skysometric

PLEASE cohost add a dark mode... and better discoverability 🙏

practically anything is better than twitter at this point but everyone is so scattered now that it's hard to keep up with who's staying where... and we're all spreading ourselves too thin >_<

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NightwingEmerald
@NightwingEmerald

This is honestly how I feel when being on here. A lot of times it's like I'm in spectator mode on here and watching people here post their stuff, getting likes and comments, and replying to asks, meanwhile I'm stuck here with nothing. It makes me jealous, but that's just me. Lot of times I don't even know why I even bothered signing up on here.

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