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autistic queerthing from france. kitty fighting the puppy allegations. Asks welcome!

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MelloMakes
@MelloMakes

positives:

-hobbies. I am progressing rapidly in guitar playing and I have read 39 books so far this year.

-mental health. the thinking/speech and reading comprehension problems i had during heavy twitter usage have faded. i.e. overexplaining myself to defend against attacks when I'm just talking to one person irl. allowing myself to have complex consideration of things rather than immediate reactions. much less anxiety and feeling of being perceived, and the impulse to Post is almost gone

-so much time regained. it feels weird that I used to spend hours at a time online. feverish days dedicated to finding out what bad things happened and spreading them out of fear and anxiety, leaving myself in a useless state until I slept. now I can catch up on an entire days' worth of stuff on my phone in 5 minutes between offline activities.

-finally being on the right side of the "jesse wtf are you talking about" meme where people have to catch me up on stuff that sounds like it's a different language and describe main characters I don't know.

negatives:

-still coming down from the stimulation of being able to see everyone work/joke/discuss (in the rare times it was positive). i feel extremely disconnected and lonely, life feels slow

-finding out which relationships could be ported from the site onto other platforms and which ones seemingly only existed there has been hard on me

-illusory feel that all networking/promo is still happening there (i'm told it's pretty dead and a shell of its former self but I still feel like I'm fucking up not being there) -it annoys me that so much culture does still only occur there despite it getting so much worse

-general experience of going from overstimulation straight to quieter and lonelier slower-paced life

yet to be seen

-how an album release goes without twitter! will be finding out very soon


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in reply to @MelloMakes's post:

What helped you get out for good? I take breaks but keep coming back, mostly on account of fighting games. I figure it's more convenient for anyone trying to contact me on twitter vs discord/fediverse.

having backup things ready to go to take that time (games and books and hobbies i'd wanted to get around to). thoroughly looking over my list of mutuals and making an effort to keep contact/follow everyone somewhere as well as manually make a rolodex of how to contact them again. i'm in a few friend discords that keep me abreast on news/funny stuff. i had built my twitter into a game industry/art/music peers zone without much of a "community" to leave like the FGC would be, though

really grateful to you for sharing this. i haven't had much luck cutting twitter loose myself but hearing how much it's helped you gives me the energy to try again

Im with you wherever you go! Even if only quietly! I'm hoping you can remain great and successful outside of there bc you're worth so much more! I similarly keep my activity on sites limited to making connections with folks rather than engage in a frankly harmful culture, i just want to do fun stuff, make friends and share joy.

i haven't left, but i've been spending significantly less time there and... yeah. i feel better and do more things. the compulsion to Post About Everything has lessened. and cohost is more fun to share fun things with anyway.

here's a thing: i get way more etsy sales when i post here than when i post on twitter. i think because it's simpler to just reach your target audience with tags and stuff here. hopefully your album release is the same.