kinda feeling like writing little flyers about covid safety to hand out at pride next week... 🤔
lately i've been trying to be a little less strict with myself about covid safety because i let myself become a sad little martyr about it. i wasn't following covid safety so much out of wanting to be safe, but out of wanting to be perceived as Undeniably Good by my peers, and anything less than perfection would have made me Undeniably Bad (hiiii moral ocd!)
I'm going to wear a mask whenever I'm not eating or drinking, and I'm going to get my vaccine every year, but I think i'm done living in fear and paranoia and refusing every invitation to go out. what i can do is lean on my strengths and work towards educating people (which my be hard right now because of wrists but i'll see what i can do).
And I'm also done hoping anyone reading 1 piece of info will suddenly open their eyes and concert to perfect safety practices. that's not how most people operate. I'm going to put out the info and move on and try to keep doing that. expecting that kind of reaction only leads me to strong negative feelings such as resentment and hopelessness and isolation, and what i want is to participate in the world with all the flawed people and love them