Thinking about how a lot of my problems in school came from me questioning shit.

Like dude i can type relatively fast and i can do it almost flawlessly without looking at the screen.
I taught myself how cause i spent so long looking at the keys while i typed.

What the fuck was that hidden keyboard speed typing class about??

And i can type how i want too, just because.

Why were we taking courses on how to properly frame a page in word.doc??

Come to think of it, sure is crazy how an abundant chunk of my formative learning amounted to absolutely nothing

One thing that ive come to know is that in 90% of cases listening to other people has gotten me fucked.

I tend to be regarded as the kind of person than is just too stupid to exist in this world but the thing is...
Nobody really knows what the fuck theyre talking about, not really.

Listening to factual, provable data is one thing but everything else is just indoctrination.

Its all just cults of varrying sizes.

So why listen to anyone but yourself? Your needs, your wants, opinions that matter to you?
You cant just take information from others at face value, its just a shitty idea.

Opinions are based off personal experience, just because one bungee cord snapped doesnt mean thatll happen to you or that itll happen often or maybe ever again.

You cant let other people fill your head with shit.

"Oh but wait, isnt that like an echo chamber, arent you just denying that youre fallable?"

Not at all!
Im just not listening to anyone else for the most part anymore.

I know who i am now, and i got here from pushing myself through the wringer ad nauseam, i have driven myself insane trying to make sense of all the information ive collected from dozens of people on a personal individual basis and if ive learned ANYTHING, its that there is no understanding others.

There is no 'right' or 'wrong'

We're all just apes tooling around trying to make the world suitable for ourselves.

i kept having a thought of how funny itd be to look back and see what my brain went through trying to change things to how i want. and it went faster, and i made a joke about my brain function instead.