"what if you regret going on hrt?" what if i regret not going on hrt

Disco fan (the game not the music).
First transgender man to have autogynephilia. Formally diagnosed with other unspecified skibidi toilet syndrome. Hobbies include writing and complaining.
"what if you regret going on hrt?" what if i regret not going on hrt
why is there no underground hrt market for trans men when there's literally an underground hrt market for cis men. maybe i should befriend some intimidating yet kindhearted gym rats and ask if i can sample their wares.