it's like when you're about to graduate high school (at least stateside) and you know that like.
you're fairly sure you'll not see a lot of these folks again, not in the same way, as you all spread out and start to take on lives of your own. sure, a couple, most everyone has those one or two friends from high school (of course, i don't lmao i fell off the face of the earth) but
i've retained.... two? friends from the first Minecraft community i was a part of, 0 connections to anyone from when I wason Roblox in 2010-2011 (though that's pushing towards middle school, not high. minecraft was high)
and other than that it's like the steams friendlist you never cleared out and then you get a nnotification that this person you flirted with on skype becuase their fursona was hot and then drifted apart is now playing some game.
after minecraft, i found furry (which is why my handle is Lupi, and accidentally why i'm a furry, my arbitrary minecraft made up handle was lupidragon because wolves were cool dragons kicked ass and butchering latin was hot girl shit when you were 15), and that was a lot of mini-spaces.
like recently (if three years ago is recent) when I fell out of Korps spaces I wish I'd been able to keep in touch with more of y'all there but that kinda just didn't come to pass.
but then the tangent again, on a more positive note
the more i look around the more grateful i am to see that so much of my cohost existence, even if it wasn't expanding horizons and making a whole lot of new circles for me, it was strengthening existing ones. like pont, we've been adjacent for ages haven't we?
so many folks i got to know on here were like, 1 degree apart if that, or we already sorta passed by each other a lot and now we play unreal tournament every thursday
and the ones i didn't know before, i'm so grateful for. @tercel-enby and I walked around my downtown talking about Florida's constructed history a couple weeks back, about how florida's modern history is so short compared to even the west, and how it's a real interesting vibe besides. especially here where the course of history was forever altered by moving a lighthouse inland. and for that matter, all the other present/former central florida cohost folks that I didn't/haven't gotten the chance to hang out with yet.
i feel like i've got a stronger network now than I did before, even if it doesn't look like it changed much from a wide angle. it's nice. if there's nothing else cohost leaves moo with, i'll be happy with just that.
