somethingtohappen

waiting for something to happen?

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having to send an email to have your account deleted is lame
hence ^AAAHGBN nooooooo
NOOO for FUCK's sake
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:<

...gufhhhhh


maybe i should accept i'm stuck deep in the hole that is this country comparable to the average post-storm pitfalls in major avenues going through grass, mud and brick

how are you san francisco californians doing anyway. really sad your comfort zone died from folks making you uncomfortable and ruining paradise. they really should've gone outside to get mugged, abused, unpersoned, and eventually buried with a deadname and obituary that reads "mentally ill shitstirrer who strayed from god" that you'd love to use as ammunition again because your empathy extends only so far about at arms' length

hi. anyone from [local area]? 'course not. even in the best circumstances i'd both show up looking like a corpse from having not a single real night of sleep since covid and i'd start acting like a corpse from the trauma fatberg of agoraphobia that's built up, and that ironically would leave me in even more danger, and which it in fact has put me in danger, as if there wasn't enough things feeding the fatberg besides this circle of hell

haa, 'circle of hell'-- that's a wildly specific memory i'm not sharing that's just come up but which i really wish i could put into words specially for this post
oh, i'm posting this? oh



still bummed cohost's gone. i guess. it's still an ill feeling. but ooh that's part of why i don't have my old pages anymore. it wasn't just completely just me imagining things. woo.

also joe wintergreen Saying That is specially disappointing because, woo, i guess there is zero hope to ever interact with that group of queer gamedev ever again. oh my i guess i wasn't imagining things when i labeled them gringo twats with selective empathy



seeing ^ that guy's crap of "people with bad vibes came in, shitstirred, left and now everything's #chill", joe wintergreen's "bu- but why not just block", and (wow this is saddening to write) cathode ray dude's "you ruined paradise" posts, was

was. was. well surely if folks think that, who am i to, like, disagree, i'm the problem, i should pick myself up and, i mean my memory's fucked...-- and

then i read alyaza's 'cohost so white' thing and. oh. i wasn't hallucinating all those times were the site was understatemently kinda shit. turns out i did remember that shit quite vividly