oh
awful time to have had a bpd isolation episode. where will everyone go off to? do i even feel good enough to stalk folk i knew or followed so i can get their info to awkwardly msg them, about, that, even though like
guh. god i wrote a lot of vitriolic stuff with 'cohost' as a shorthand for that i insulted, but god i didn't want the place to die lol. i mean, just found out from coming back to check what folks were writing about the, uh, asinine thingy i was thinking about
lot of genuine literature that was made for and existed exclusively on this site that i'll permanently lose, even after i "dweweted my accownt" as if that didn't feel fucking bad e-nough as a consequence of that episode
i remember someone mentioning, here, the advice of making a sorta codex where you aggressively save stuff for yourself lest you lose that forever and, it gets dilluted and weird and you forget where you even where... or just plain forget. or not even forget, but the thingy that knew it just goes silent and away...
...oh yeah. learnt a lot of new things. about ourself. that was
fuck me i can't finish writing this
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thank you cohost,,