drafts are full of posts i've typed up about philosophy, ethics, etc, and then sent into post purgatory because i dont really actually feel qualified to talk about that kind of stuff in such a way that my beliefs are actually understood by strangers without alot of context about me
and also just like, im still figuring stuff out all the time, and even worse than being misunderstood, is the thought that someone might take what i clumsily believe, and treat me as someone with some kind of wisdom, and that my messy underdeveloped amateurish beliefs might influence their beliefs in some profound way. like wouldn't that be irresponsible of me? wouldnt i be manipulating them in some unintended way
having your coherent beliefs misunderstood as incoherent ones is bad, but having your incoherent beliefs misunderstood as coherent ones is worse