i wish i could become a high school biology teacher, but without the enormous mental, physical, and financial toll of having to go through college again,
or of being exploited by a government that doesn't give a fuck about teachers,
or navigating the extreme difficulties of creating large amounts of classroom learning material while suffering from chronic wrist and hand pain due to rsi
just let me have a job where i can info dump about biology to people in peace and get paid for it
i'm chronically unemployed because of autism and adhd and not having a college degree or marketable skills, and only being qualified for menial service-sector jobs that literally almost killed me in 2019
the only job i've ever had that actually made me happy (before i had a mental breakdown and burned out from it because of the abusive working environment) was something that was, in a lot of ways, teaching.
the higher ups really did not want it to be described as teaching, because "that's the professor's job", but realistically you could not actually succeed in that job without learning how to be a teacher, at least a little bit, because the professors frequently did not explain things clearly.
teaching is one of the few jobs (alongside the almost entirely unobtainable "field botanist" role, which would be our dream job) where the mere concept of doing it does not fill me with instant revulsion and existential dread and the urge to Exit Reality, where i could see a version of myself being happy doing it, if they were somehow able to put up with labor conditions even worse than the previously mentioned job that wrecked us with its bad work environment
