podcasts and audiobooks are fun, but they take away time that i would otherwise just be bored and alone with my thoughts. when i'm listening to them all the time, it hijacks my train of thought and prevents me from having much thoughts besides processing the audio. i hardly daydream.
and i need that low-stimulation time. partially i need it to be able to process and think about things that are happening around me, and to feel my own emotions and think my own thoughts. partially i need it in order to stop dissociating from my surroundings and look at plants and stuff. i need it to feel like someone.
and also like, a thing i notice is when i'm cooking and i don't listen to a podcast, i get so bored that i often start singing. usually folk songs.
last night i was reaching for new songs to sing and suddenly remembered so many wobbly songs that i just hadn't thought about in forever. and i felt like i was kind of missing out on them.
listening to stuff all the time is very much in adhd coping mechanism for us but we think that in excess it is actively harmful to us, both in general and also with relation to our adhd