No but like. Okay I'm thinking about SLARPG too much to actually make a post thats like, "I finished SLARPG! I thought it was good!" because it just kind of hit enough psychic mass in my head to have its own event horizon. Like I came out of the elongated finish the game session like "aw, that was a solid 8/10", if i analysed it any more that evening it was mostly to say "it did thing x which was like when indie rpg y also did that first" to almost reaffirm its just-an-8/10-ittude. So I went to bed maaaybe planning a full review post.
And then I woke up tomorrow and just started breaking into tears at random parts of the day and ive been listening to basically nothing but the soundtrack since then. lol???
I havent like, done fandom in a while, or really since I was a kid, since my Teen Internet Thing was that wormhole of rationalist fiction i vague(?) about. As a personality I've developed a sort of funky octopus camouflage where I make myself - and honestly increasingly my voice in fiction - mimic the Post-Homestuck side of the internet all around me to get by. all that to say - i basically like autistically mask a lot of my actual interests lol.¹
anyway I think i've hit like. the threshold where i actually want to write a slarpg fic. I know that doesn't actually sound like much, but I dont know how to do this, im a fucking baby, i'm fucking small.² I'm having a lot of neurodivergent brain slime that could make for Good Posts but i dont know what im doing. i dont know how to post. the hardest thing for a Poster to admit is when she doesn't know how to Post this is like my 9/11
