going back to tumblr after being on cohost for months feels like being dumped in the chaotic and weird ocean after getting used to a cozy little pond with your friends and idk how i’m gonna adapt again
when i was here it felt like i had people actually care what i had to say, but for whatever reason tumblr makes me feel like whatever i have to contribute is irrelevant and nobody cares, so why bother instead of just reblogging everything else? on tumblr i’d never be able to post about taking my driver’s test in a month and have a bunch of people wish me luck. …probably? maybe it’s just cause i had trouble making actual connections with others on there, and maybe that was my fault a bit. my mental health and social ability were significantly worse when i was last active there. but i also think a lot of it was down to how the site just is. it feels a lot more impersonal, for whatever reason, and it makes me feel like i’m supposed to use it in a more impersonal way.
but on the other hand, if you don’t try, nothing happens. plenty of people run their tumblr blogs like cohost pages, as far as i can tell, so i’m hoping if i post more about myself and my thoughts on tumblr, the way i have been here, maybe i’ll find people who will care and listen, like you all have.
cohost taught me the world, and i’ll forever be grateful for this place and try to carry it with me in my presence on the rest of internet. soon it’ll be time to go, but farewell doesn’t mean the end. as long as this light still shines in my soul, our souls, cohost will be alive.
so don’t forget, okay?
cohost is a freshwater pond where everybody contributes to the vibes
tumblr is the saltwater ocean, harsh, big and mysterious. you will never see all of it, and it will hurt you if you try. you will never know if you have contributed until you have made a mistake. you can still find little pond-like groups, but it's not quite the same when the very water is abrasive (and there are no walls)
Finding a space on tumblr is like finding a reef. You'll live there with all your other fish friends but every so often a shark will come in and try and eat people.
As someone who has made (literally) my closest friends on Tumblr, just stand your ground, don't be afraid to communicate with people you think are cool, and don't be afraid to block the asshats
