executive dysfunction is the stupidest shit ever. i hate that my brain makes me struggle to get started on not only work and chores and self care and whatnot but also HOBBIES. things that are fun! leisure activities like playing a video game or working on a model kit! if it feels like it takes even the slightest amount of effort or any sort of time commitment then it's a struggle. executive dysfunction makes me feel lazy but i can't even be lazy right
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in reply to @ponett's post:
got on wellbutrin/buproprion like 2-3 months ago and it's been a massive help for getting over the lifelong executive dysfunction nightmare of "can't get myself to do the things I need to do and therefore cannot feel good about leisure activities". I'm hoping you're able to get on that or another treatment to escape what sounds like a similar depression cycle
i definitely need to be on some kind of medication, but i don't have insurance and don't even have a doctor so, y'know. that's the first step
been struggling with this a lot, just been trying to understand how my brain works and find ways to use that to advantage lol, but the brain is just weird obviously :/ hope thaings get better soon
I haven't been diagnosed officially with anything but GOD. It took me a week to write a resumé for job hunting. Not for lack of ability to write it, just every time I stared at the Word doc my brain would start playing static.
A friend sent me some videotapes to capture like 8 months ago. I'm good at that and enjoy it and can do it very easily! So after three months of them sitting around I finally set up my capture rig and captured most of the tapes. Then I put the rig away and said I'd take care of the last three tapes the next day.
Four months later I managed to get those last 3 tapes captured. All because the effort was "take out this laptop, and a camcorder, and the chargers for both, and the one cable to connect the two." That was apparently far too much for my brain to handle.
RIGHT? With games I'll play something for maybe a week and drop it for a year.
Medicine thus far has just made me remember every bad thing I've ever done and go around apologizing to friends.
I feel this SO deeply. (And in an "amusing" coincidence, this is basically the reason why I haven't made any progress in SLARPG in over a year.) May things improve for everyone here.
This is painfully relatable, I hate it too 😖