Moneys low, rents high.
Spoons low, bills high.
It's weird. Life's weird you know? I'm like dreading every week because of my financial situation. I'm applying for jobs getting rejected. I'm getting casual jobs but not getting much work but the expectation to work whenever they feel like is there. Nothing is stable. I get harassed by the job provider agency saying I need to get a job. I have 3 none of them give me work.
Its developing feelings like I'm lousy and pathetic. Meanwhile friends are on full-time wages or even part time and doing fine. I'm expected to be just as fine as they are but I don't even know if I can pay rent this week. I don't know if I can afford the doctors to get my eyes checked for the issues they have been causing me. I'm just expected to be complicit. Society is fucked. Economy is fucked. Money being a way to live shouldn't exist.
But I'm always scrounging for it. To pay a landlord that doesn't care about me to pay bills that make no sense. I wish I could be an adult that focuses on my well-being but i can't even afford that.
Life's not ok.