Yo laying it out honestly. How dyou get the drive to continue to create? To truly believe what you're doing is worth making? I've got imposter syndrome up the ass where I can hear compliments but they don't mean anything, and i find myself simply unable to Create, because of a lack of belief that what I'm doing is Worth It.
I know this is sort of more serious than most everything here, but honestly, you're such a fucking cool ass person for what you've made for yourself, that I just felt you'd be someone to ask.
Thank you! Honestly, my drive to create has nothing to do with whether I believe it's worth making, and it has nothing to do with hearing compliments. Sure, compliments are nice, and I always love to hear about people enjoying my work/finding it meaningful, but at the end of the day, external motivation is not sustainable for long projects. The reason I create is because it's something I love to do on a mechanical level. I love putting together designs, I love writing dialog, I tolerate programming because it lets me do those other things. None of these feelings have anything to do with skill, or praise, or being Worth It. I have no illusions that Snake Farm is going to change the world, but it made me happy to make it. That's enough to make its creation worthwhile.
You need to remove the idea that art must justify itself in order to exist, or that your art must justify itself in order to make up for being made by you. Art simply is. You simply are. Everything else is external.
