well gamers i have a mild case of hppd and now i hate sleeping and also being awake. hell
it started with weird visual distortions like tracers behind my hands and seeing tables melt into the floor at work. then the other night i had this lucid, hypervivid nightmare that i was trapped in. i couldn't wake up no matter how hard i tried until finally i opened my eyes only to start experiencing sleep paralysis, fucking, screaming for my partner but they couldn't hear me. something eventually woke them up and they sat me up and i had a severe panic attack. i never wanted to go back to sleep!!! i was sick all day and couldn't sit up and now i've been having creepy dark feelings and floaters and intense dreams, hypnopomic hallucinations etc but no more nightmares at least. i think i know the cause, drugs cw - i dropped some certain drugs one day after microdosing similar drugs for like a month. i guess this is a psa as well as a vent
